11/10/12

30 Days of NaNoWriNo meme


Day 1 - Have you participated in NaNoWriMo before? If so, which years and what end result? If not (or even if so, for that matter), what’s your connection to writing? Why do you want to participate this year?

I did NaNoWriMo last year and only got to 10k before I gave up. I'm participating this year because I've been having major writers block for months. I finished 2 30k novels summer 2011 and nothing in 2012.

Day 2 - What’s the title of your story?  Why did you choose the name you did?

My book is called Freefall and it comes from an Ed Sheeran song Where We Land, "Let's freefall and see where we land". I'm sure that I'm going to change that before that doesn't have anything to do with the plot or anything.

Day 3 - Pick one of your female characters.  Introduce your readers to her, from her point of view and her words only.

I have three very important main females, but this is Anne.

River McGuire is a terrible best friend.

I'm sure he know that.

He's closed off and doesn't get close to people, the opposite of my twin brother Kyle. 

Sometimes I wish we were best friends. I'm always there for him, whenever he needs me. 

People find it impossible to believe that we have never had romantic feelings for each other.

River is attractive, that's true, but I do not like him. Plus, River doesn't date people. He has sex.

Day 4 - What genre is your novel?  Why did you pick it?

Young Adult- It's a young adult novel. There's a lot of sex though. I am a young adult and this is written for young adults.

Day 5 - Name two songs from your playlist that you feel are connected with your novel in some way, and explain how they are.

My playlist is 107 songs long, even after I removed some but,

Fast Times At Claremont High- Pierce The Veil "I've been saving myself for you, I waited my whole life for you.. (Bridget had a crush on River her whole entire life.) hold on this is innocent love (Bridget's love River is innocent compared to Kendall's)... cause without you nothing ever really matter (Kendall's life revolved around River)... it's over, if i die you die too (Kendall killed Bridget because she had sex with River. And well, if River doesn't love her, she's going to kill him too).. so melodramatic but it turns me on (River is dramatic. He could date one girl, he could date one girl he likes, Kendall, but instead, he hooks up with random girls, because he's scared of being in a relationship)...i just wanted one dance with you (Bridget just wanted one dance with River)... I'd kill anyone who gets close(Kendall "loves" River so much that she'll kill anyone who get's close to him, even her own sister).. don't you know, I'd die for you (Bridget dies because she had sex with River)"

That song literally is my novel. It's odd because when I planned this story last summer I'd never heard it before.

Scene Three- With Ears to See and Eyes To Hear- Sleeping With Sirens

True friends lie underneath- River finds out that his friends really are good friends.

I think your mouth should be quite cause it never tells the truth- Everything Kendall says is lie

It's written on my heart for everyone to see- River's life is on display for the whole school to see

I Never Told You What I Do For A Living- My Chem is also a great song.

Day 6 - What is your one biggest stressor related to forcing yourself to write at least 50,000 words in a span of 30 days?

Time. I have a life, friends, school...

Day 7 - Where’s your favorite place to hunker down and write?

My bed- that's the only place I wrote except in study hall when things get desperate.

 Day 8 -List your current, most up-to-date word count.  Are you satisfied with your progress thus far?

26k- uhhh... I am beyond satisfied.

Day 9 - Have you told anyone else you’re doing NaNo this year?  Who?  What was their reaction?

My best friends- She's also doing it

My Mom- she thinks I won't finish

Counselor- He's a write and he think's its awesome


Day 10 - How does your love of writing manifest in non-NaNo months?


I always write... I just to stick to them or have a goal

11/4/12

I'm really happy right now...

Well, I've been really happy which sucks because that means I'm going to crash soon.

You know life sucks when your sad about being happy.

11/3/12

Calories Count: Day 1

|Day one: Saturday 11/3/12|

Breakfast:

1/2 Banana: 60 (about)
1/2 cup mango juice: 60 
2 slices of mandarin oranges:  20 (about)

Total: 140

Lunch:

Snack:
5 Unsalted Saltines: 60
1 tablespoon peanut butter: 90

Total: 150

Dinner:
Turkey Wrap:

  • Low carb totillia: 100
  • 2 slices turkey: 50
  • cream cheese: 40
  • Lettuce: 2
  • 1/4 cup cheese: 80
Iced water: 0

Total: 272

Total: 562

Notes: I probably should have skipped the cream cheese and peanut butter, but whatever. I'm actually only half way done with the snake wrap, but I'm probably going to finish it :) 

Wow! It feels so much better to eat healthy than to starve myself... And I resisted the urge to eat candy!

I do realize my intake is low but I'm FULL and happy with that!

Tips:

Eat slowly!

Vegetables like  celery and lettuce are so low in calories and are healthy!

Hide the candy! Halloween just past, but if its not around you won't even notice it!

Water!

Haven't added work out yet..

11/2/12

I Wish I Had A Boyfriend

I wish I had a boyfriend so I could make his cute little mix tapes of all the songs that remind me of him. There would be one song he hated but would pretended to like just because I liked it.

And also because I'm horny.

11/1/12

RIP Mitch Lucker

First I was shocked, then I was angry, then sad and now I'm just heart broken.

Not only did we lose a wonderful musician, but a wife lost her husband, and saddest of all, a little girl lost her father.

10/31/12

This Year Went By So Fast

I swear it was last week that I was stressing out about finals! That was in May!

These last few months have gone by so fast! How is tomorrow November?!

Halloween!

100% chance of rain. Nice.

I'm going to be a rave kid, like with a fluffy animal hat, tons of braclets and slutty shirt ect, and my best friend is a hipster...

I'm going trick or treating, I really don't care how old I am. I'm going with eleven people.. but ya know, creepy people out their its better to have a big group

10/28/12

Wow today was actually a good day

Well, most of it was anyway. I've been depressed (more so than usual) and anti-social (more so than usual) so it was nice to hang out with people besides my friends (since, you know, they tend not to include me in their plans anyway).

So, first I had a nice Skins (UK of course) marathon last night/ this morning. I like Skins. A Lot. (I like the plots and I would like to fuck all the girls from the 2nd generation). And even though I seen every episode at least twenty times it never gets old.

Then, I went to the bookstore, there is no book store in my town, so my trips to the bookstore is rare. I got a book I've wanted to read for over a year (The Secret Year) and I got the Alternative Press November issue (the one with all of them on the cover, because they all looked hot). To my surprise it was a drummer's special, I'm a drummer and I think drummers are under appreciated. And it had an interview with Gerard Way (my baby). I rarely buy Alt Press because I'm poor, only when one of my favorites are on the cover.

Then, I went shopping at the mall with my little cousins, who are like my sister. I love them, a lot. Even though they are fans of the Wanted and think One Direction is the stupidest band ever.

There was a bunch of hot guys today (yay!) and we all got leather jackets at Tilly's (because we're cool). Tilly's is my favorite store (besides Forever 21 and Hot Topic).


That's the one I bought and it looks fucking perfect on me, even though it's oddly and x-large which is weird because I'm not an x-large. All the stuff I own from Tilly's (most of which are the same brand) are small or medium, but whatever. Although, they should have xx-large stuff, because my cousin was going to buy this jacket first but x-large was the biggest size and its tiny. But whatever.

Also, every time I go to Tilly's, I see this bag



and I want it but I never buy it...

Also, my dad told me were going to disneyland in January and Lake Tahoe in March (even though we go ti Lake Tahoe yearly, I love it there)

10/27/12

Tv Shows and Movies I Like

This is a short list.

I'm too picky with acting and nothing interests me, and I just like reading more. So, this is the never growing list..

Tv Shows:
American Horror Story
Skins (UK)
Teen Wolf
Degrassi
Full House
90210 (To an extent..)
Pretty Little Liars (Also to an extent)
Arthur (Yeah, the show about a talking aardvark)

I like the food network channel too.

Movies:
Dazed and Confused
Perks of Being A Wallflower
Breakfast Club
The Art of Getting By

I thinks that's basically it? My cousin says to watch the Walking Dead?

10/26/12

My Dream in Life

My dream in life is basically that one day, I'm like, 20 and going to college in San Francisco. At the local bookstore that I visit daily, a cute guy works. I go several time before we talk. Soon, every time I come, which is pretty often, we talk about famous literature and quotes and everything from deep, meaningful "What's my purpose of life?" questions to "What's for lunch?". And we would have similar taste in music and one day our favorite band would come and we would go and fall in love and one days we would have cute little babies that are raised in a great family and from a young age we teach them that love is love, and you can love who ever you want, and we wouldn't really be a religious family but if our child wanted, they could go to church. (Then I would send them to a boarding school in London where they would become best friends with Darcy Styles-Tomlinson. "hey, mom can I stay at Darcy's for the weekend?" "Sure but I need to talk to her parents first" "Harry and Louis? They're cool with it mom" "Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson? From One Direction?" "Yup")

(Or I can marry Vic Fuentes)

10/25/12

Conventional Weapons..

Uh, I don't if they got leaked or whatever, but the first two song, Boy Division and Tomorrows Money are on Youtube.

I don't words to describe this. Its been two years. I started crying before I even


10/22/12

Things I Like / Things I hate

I don't like many things.. but here's some:


  • the screams you hear right before band your at a concert of start. The happiness, the adrenaline. Everyone loves the same thing you do. Everyone wants to hear the band play. Everyone had all the lyrics memorized and hoping for there favorite song to be played.
  • the moment when your iPod plays the exact song you wanted to listen too.
  • when you can go to sleep in peace on a firday or saturday knowing you don't have to go to school next day, you don't have to deal with assholes or bratty queen's. you don't have to sit though hours of classes not learning a thing.
  • when you haven't looked at your phone in days and see you have texts. people actually want to talk to you. people actually care.
  • collar bones. i just really, really like collar bones. and wrist. bones in general. they are beautiful.
  • scars. every scar has a story- happy or sad. they all have a story, they all have a meaning.
  • when you pick up a random book and its good.
  • when you prove someone wrong. anything, someone thinks you can't go something and you do. better yet, you do it well.
  • words.
  • poems.
  • listening to a song you haven't heard in a long time- all the memories come flooding back
  • expecting a pair of jeans not to fit- they do
  • lyrics, melody, music. 
  • rain
  • being in love
  • the pain of piercing
things i hate

  • not being able to go to sleep because everything is stressing you out.
  • knowing you won't ever be able to see a certain band one day because they're dead or broken up
  • when all your friends hang out but don't even bother to include you
  • doctors appointments
  • finding out terrible news on a good day
  • expecting a number on the scale- and your weight is higher
  • someone your not friends with because you just stopped talking- you didn't fight, just grew apart
  • when your best friend is sad
  • being in class.. needing a partner.. not knowing anyone in that class
  • studying for a test for days and failing
  • cliffhangers 
  • open endings
  • falling in love
  • falling out of love

10/21/12

I am very much into hardcore music right now

Hardcore, emocore, screamo, whatever the fuck its called.

It's odd because I sent the end of 2011 and the first seven or eight months of 2012 obsessed with One Direction, Cher Lloyd, and all the people similar, then I had a brief Coldplay, The Fray, The Script and bands like that, then in September maybe I started listening to the music I had always listened to, such as, Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, Bring The Horizon, All Time Low, pierce The Veil with a touch of stuff like The Ramones, Nirvana and Sublime

10/19/12

In Which Harry Styles Is Beautiful



god dammit. harry fucking styles is always so beautiful but i literally cannot handle this picture of him. like just stop it. 


Guys I find attractive! Gif edition (1/?)

None of these gifs are mine.

this is part one of ? of guys i find really fucking hot.

warning: all these guys are really fucking hot.

|Alex Arnold| Rich Hardbeck from Skins (Series 5 & 6) |

I NEED more shows from him.









|Kellin Quinn| Sleeping With Sirens|









|Harry Styles| One Direction |

hi im harreh styles and im literally the most beautiful person on earth

sometimes i think "wow this guy is hot" them i remember that harry styles is hotter

even if you hate one direction, you have to admit harry styles is one attractive fucker









|Dylan O'Brian| Stiles in Teen Wolf |










stay tuned for part two + girls I find attrative

Books I've Read in 2012 (so far)/To Read

So, in January, I had this plan to read 100 books this year- that was before I became obsessed with Larry Stylinson (One Direction) Fanficiton.

Most likely, I won't reach this goal. Or half this goal. But either way, these are the books I've read so far.

At the end of the year I will review my favorites!
  1. The Fault In Our Stars - John Green
  2. Perks of being a Wallflower- Stephen Chbosky (re-read)
  3. Dare To Dream- One Direction
  4. City of Lost Souls - Cassanda Clare
  5. Pretend You Love Me- Julie Anne Peters 
  6. Wake- Lisa Mcmann (re-read)
  7. Fade - Lisa McMann (re-read)
  8. Gone - Lisa McMann (re-read)
  9. Freefall- Mindi Scott
  10. The Savage Grace by Bree Despain
  11. Split by Swati Avasthi
  12. Dead To You - Lisa McMann
  13. Try Not to breathe- Jennifer Hubbard
  14. Don't Forget To Breathe- By Holly Cupala
  15. Romeo and Juliet by William Shaksphere.
  16. Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGiuire
  17. The Boyfriend Thief- Shana Norris
  18. The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight- Jennifer E. Smith
  19. Saving June- Hannah Harrington
  20. Five Flavors of Dumb- Antony John
  21. Party- Tom Leveen
  22. The Future of Us- Jay Asher & Carolyn Mackler
  23. Dash and Lily's Book Of Dares- Rachel Cohn and David Levithan.
  24. Break- Hannah Moskowitz (re-read)
  25. Invincible Summer (re-read)
  26. As Dead as It Gets- Katie Alender
  27. The Secret Year- Jennifer Hubbard
  28. My Beating Teenage Heart-  CK Kelly Martin
  29. I Know Its Over- CK Kelly Martin 
  30. Will Grayson Will Grayson- John Green and David Levithan

To Read:

books of 2012: book 20

The Fault in our stars - john green

words can't describe y love for this book

100 books in 2012: book 19

Perks of being a Wallflower- Stephen Chbosky

*Re-read

The first time I read this book, I was eleven.

This is one of my favorite books of all time, and this time around, it made a lot more sense.

10/18/12

To Do List:

To Do List for the next three days:


  • Skins (UK) Marathon
  • American Horror Story (season 1) Marathon
  • Teen Wolf (Season 1 & 2) Marathon
  • Catch up on Pretty Little Liars
  • Catch up on 90210
  • Do all my missing math work
  • Bio study guide
  • Study for bio test (monday)
  • Bio worksheets
  • Finish my Larry Stylinson Halloween fanfiction
  • Football Game on Friday (?)

10/15/12

Biology..

There are many, and I mean a lot, of things and people I hate in life. Everything from tomatoes to politics.

But you know what I really hate?

Biology.

I should do homework..

but the internet is just so much more fun..

10/7/12

Favorite 1D One Shots

I swear I would have left the One Direction fandom already if it wasn't for the fan fiction.

 I'm organizing my bookmarks so, this is favorite ff's at the moment. i make a new list like, weekly so.

mulit paring, all slash, lots of sites

read these or die unhappy

I wonder what my family would think

I would what my too religious, too judgmental family would think of the fact I enjoy my Sunday afternoon reading gay incest. Whoops is that against the bible?

10/6/12

a story (or three) I want to write

The first story is about a boy and a girl as most stories are. The boy is really reckless and free, and an artist and plays the piano. He does drugs (like ecstasy maybe, something besides weed) and hangs out with the "bad" kids and has issues at home. The girl is like, really perfect. She's really religious ( Catholic or Christian probably). She's really smart and tries really hard in everything and probably has an older sister that she's trying to live up to.

idea 1: Then, the girl has cancer (or something else) and has a certain amount of time to live, she's okay with that because she really doesn't have anyone she really loves, her friends are too fake, and her boyfriend broke up with her, but then she meet the guy, and he kind of changes everything she's ever thought she knew.

idea 2: The girls parent or sibling (or friend) dies and she starts losing her faith in god and starts shutting down and then the guy comes into her life, the exact kind of guy she always tried to avoid, especially him because he's always into trouble.

idea 3: The girl is under a lot of pressure (maybe she gets asked to model? school president?) Her best friend and sister are both tiny, and even though she is too, she starts developing an eating disorder. Maybe her sister, who is really super religious, finds out and instead of comforting her, she gets mad, because its not her body, its gods body, its sacred. She ends up joining art (or band) for some reason, maybe she needs her art credits because so far she's only been in highly academic classes. There she meets the guy. She isn't the biggest fan of time at first, because she's highly judgmental at first, and he has piercings and listens to punk music and is an artist and in a band. Maybe she cuts herself and maybe he finds out. Something like that. He teachers her to live, to not care what other think. And that maybe, what's on the outside doesn't really matter. Maybe he should practice what he preaches though.

probs gonna go with the third idea.

Based on my music taste

based on my music taste, I should probably a scene kid or a washed up stoner.

10/2/12

Dazed and Confused at the movies..

I'm excited! :D

My friend's grandparents own a movie theater (the only one..) in town and for my friends birthday next week they're going to play Dazed and Confused and its only going to be my friends and lol this is gonna be crazy.

10/1/12

Favorite songs at the moment

Drella- Pierce The Veil

A Trophy Father's Trophy Son- Sleeping with Sirens (*sobs*)

A Match Into Water- Pierce The Veil

Disasterology- Pierce The Veil

Scene One: James Dean and Audrey Hepburn- Sleeping With Sirens

Hell Above- Pierce The Veil

If You Can't Hang- Sleeping With Sirens

If I'm James Dean, Then You're Audrey Hepburn- Sleeping With Sirens

Scene Two: Rodger Rabbit- Sleeping with Sirens

Yeah Boy and Doll Face- Pierce The Veil

King For A Day- Pierce The Veil

Fast Times at Claremont High- Pierce The Veil

Who Are We Now- Sleeping with Sirens

Stay Away From My Friends- Pierce The Veil

Do It Now Remember It Later- Sleeping With Sirens

Bulletproof Love- Pierce The Veil

First Punch- Pierce The Veil


9/30/12

My mom thinks I'm a hippie

No mom I don't do enough drugs to be a hippie

9/29/12

Stop me from shopping DX

Seriously, I have a problem.

Awkward moment when I don't like "Set This World on Fire" or "Live While We're Young"

So, I was patiently waiting for One's Direction's "Live While We're Young" and The Janoskians' "Set This World On Fire" since forever.

Lol. I don't like either of them.

Pretty funny considering how much I love both..

Yeah, I'm over pop/mainstream music.

Crying because I can't go to see Sleeping With Sirens and Pierce the Veil

*sobs*

I can't find a ride :/ I HATE LIFE

If it wasn't for Larry Stylinson fanfiction...

I would have left the 1D fandom long, long ago.

9/25/12

full friendship circle

When I was little my best friend was this girl, L.

Our mom's were next door neighbors and best friends, so by default we were best friends, everyone thought we were sisters.

In 6th grade, first year of middle school, we just stopped talking. We didn't have a fight or anything, we just grew apart.

Now, we're good friends again, we're the only tumblr people at our school (that we know of) and we love all the same stuff, and i don't know, it feels right/

I tend to need these so...

Sometimes, I random what happened on a certain day. Like on Sept. 8, 2011 I wrote an odd message on my friends dog's facebook, why?

So for future reference, today, September 25 is a Tuesday and I have a lot of homework I have to do.

I made plans to go to the mall tomorrow and L.B and Lex weren't at school today. Ms White and Ms Morgan also weren't here. We're making pancakes in Culinary tomorrow and I have to finish the mermaid thing.

No such thing as love..

Once long, long ago (Okay like two years ago), I was a very negative person that truly thought that love didn't exist and everything was about sex.

Things change, man.

The worst thing in life is probably falling out of love.

Or maybe getting bored.

Like when I'm in like (not love..) I believe in love. Then after I'm like "Woah. Love isn't really I just want to fuck them,"

So I like alternate, like right now, I don't have a crush. No one I like, no one that I want to have a relationship with, there's just a list of guys I really want to fuck.

In a few months, I'll be like "omg im in luv omg lets get married"

Life, man, life. Its complicated

Thing My Parents Hate

Or more accurately, thing my parents hate about me. Or maybe the things I hate about myself.

  • I have shitty grades
  • I want to move to San Francisco
  • I like "stoner" and "goth" music
  • I "try to be a vampire"
  • I enjoy piercings and tattoos
  • I have to many guy friends
  • I don't have a boyfriend
  • I don't go to parties
  • I hate everyone
  • I'm fat
  • I'm not friendly
  • I'm in a shitty punk band
  • I want to be an artist
  • I skateboard 
  • I'm not girly and perfect
  • BECAUSE IM A SLUT AND I WANT TO FUCK EVERYTHING WITH A PENIS
  • AND IDK GIRLS ARE KIND OF ATTRACTIVE BUT I DON'T ACTUALLY LIKE THEM?
  • AND DRUGS ARE FASCINATING
  • SCARS ARE NICE AND WRIST ARE NICE
  • AND ALCOHOL COMES IN HANDY 
Wait what

9/23/12

Live While We're Young- One Direction

So, basically, for the last year I have gone months listening to nothing but One Direction.

I've been DYING for more music.

Then, last month I randomly got over them.

I hadn't listened to 1D in a which, and when I listened to LWWY I didn't even like it lol.

9/22/12

HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL

So.

This guy, at my school, literally is the hottest guy I have ever laid my eyes on.

He's a Kellin Quinn on my scale.

Kellin Quinn is the top of my scale.

I'm not even kidding. He's so hot. If I was to describe my perfect guy, this would be him.

He has huge plus, not sure what size, but pretty big, he also has the septum and Medusa piercing.

And asfghjkl his eyes are so green and gosh he is just so hot.

I can't wait for rain..

OH WAIT I live in California it NEVER rains -____-

Update on the thing referred to as my life

1.

God.

I don't see you for a month and you get arrested and drop out of school.

Okay.

Have an enjoyable life. I'm moving on.

2.

Haven't cut in four days.

Me and my two best friends have matching homemade friendship bracelets.

As long as that's on my wrist, I won't cut.

3.

I'm surprised I've never mentioned him before.

But the hottest guy on earth goes to my school.

He is the definition of perfection.

He's so fucking hot.

And he's an artist.

He owes like seven pairs of Ray Bans.

And he has huge plugs.

His septum pierced.

The face of an angel.

Amazing taste in music.

I swear on my life he will be a tattoo artist on day.

He is literally the hottest thing I've ever seen.

4.

The guy that sits next to be in English is really intriguing.

He's a stoner.

But I don't know.

He's on of those people, that pay attention to the smallest things

He explained the perfect murder to me

He kind of scares me to be honest

He's really smart.

9/18/12

I need a distraction.

I really need a distraction right now.

I need something to read or watch.

Right now.

Nice Messages on Tumblr make my day :D

Seriously.

I ignore hate, it doesn't hurt me or anything you know? It's kind of irrelevant to me, sending on Anonymous is a pathetic move. I've never gotten hate off anon before.

But anyway, nice messages, anon or not, totally make  my day!

Janoskians single, "Set This World On Fire"

I didn't get past the first thirty seconds.

Background, I've been a Janoskians fan for a few months, maybe half a year, and I had been anticipating there single since it was rumored.

Now, its not bad.

Just not my taste. Ha.

9/17/12

Somewhere in Neverland

How dare Alex Gaskarth write a song about Peter Pan?!?!

That. Is. Not Acceptable.

*cries*

I'm obsessed with Peter Pan and I want to have a quote tattooed and CRIES.

All Time Low is like my favorite band. Peter Pan is my obsession.

I'm reading Peter and Wendy AGAIN right now.

This isn't okay.

I must cry to my mom about this.

One Direction Fandom Rant

Once upon a time, the One Direction fandom was fun, enjoyable, and a great place to make friends.

I know, hard to believe.

Okay, I'm not blaming this on anyone really, but yeah, to be honest in the time before Eleanor came into the picture, everything was way, way different.

A lot of fans, like at least half or more haven't been part of the fandom for more than six months, si they won't know, but yeah. IT WASN'T ALWAYS FULL OF SHIT.

There was a time when "Larry or you aren't a real fan"

When I first join the fandom, long ago (okay not that long ago, like this time last year) I felt like I had to lie about when I became a fan ("Since X-Factor), and then later on I felt like I had to like Eleanor, Caroline or who ever the boys were with.

The One Direction fandom is stupid.

Real fan: someone that would support the boys no matter what, someone that would never send hate to the boys loved one's, the boys, or to other fans.

Most people seem to think a real fan is: You know every single thing about everyone the boys have ever encountered, you worship their girlfriends, you buy 350$ tickets to meet them, buy all of there merch. ect.

If that is a real fan, then I am not one.

Things that annoy me:

"I wish One Direction would date a normal girl"

*Louis dates (or whatever your opinion on that is) Eleanor*

"Eleanor doesn't do anything besides go to school and shop" AKA what a normal girl does.

"Harry is whore, he hooks up with everything with a vagina"

No.

"Larry is real, but if you believe in Ziam/Ziall/Niam you're stupid. Zayn/Liam have girlfriends"

Hypocrite.

"If you like One Direction you can't like The Wanted/Big Time Rush/What About Tonight ect"

Ok.

"You're 12 you can't like them"

Music has no age.

This list could go on, but I'm done with the fandom for the time being so whatever.

btw: I'm a 16 yr old larry shipper..

I'm odd.

I'm an odd one.

I know that, I realize that.

I truly don't care other opinions. 

If you tell me something, I either won't pay attention, and if for some reason I do, I won't care.

I rarely pay attention to anything.

I have pretty much no sympathy for anyone, or anything. 

I'm sarcastic 90% of the time.

I hate you unless I have a valid reason to like you.

If I like you, that means I can handle your presence for fifteen minutes.

I'm hyper active.

I'm trying to lose 20 pounds.

I self-harm. 

I always smile, no matter what.

Perks of Being A Wallflower

Several summers ago, three or four, I'm not exactly sure, I spent every Monday and Wednesday at the library.

I probably read at least one hundred books that summer, yet Perks of Being a Wallflower is the only book I remember reading.

Most attractive body parts..

Woah. I'm weird.

Anyway, I find wrist and collar bones really beautiful okay.

The sadness is overwhelming..

Everything's okay.

9/16/12

How do I have friends?

I'm being 100% serious. I worry about these poor children's mental health.

I FUCKING READ GAY PORN OUT LOUD TO THEM.

I'm basically the "baby" of my close friend group.

Even though I'm older (not by much but still) them most of them.

But I act like an ADHD five year old (according to them).

Its true though.

They have learned to never bring sugary foods, never have cool school supplies (OMG my friend had a  Gel Highlighter and it smells like cherry playdough. Its magical). They never let me cross the street alone, and lol.

HOW THE FUCK DO I HAVE FRIENDS.

Louis Twitter Drama...

Ok, so I'm a Larry Shipper.

Does that make me not a real fan?

Ok.

Whatever, I'm done with the One Direction fandom.

I mean, today I said on Tumblr that people should stop hating on Larry shippers.

And my inbox was filled with this:


I, personally, have never sent hate to anyone (not another fan, or a "girlfriend" or whatever) ever.

Whatever. I'm done.

Also, One Direction isn't special. They aren't the only fandom people write fanfiction about and ship people. EVER FANDOM HAS A GAY COUPLE. 



9/15/12

Replacing posters..

whut. ugh. life. music.

so over the course of the last year, all my posters ended up being replaced by one direction posters. but whut they are slowing disappearing

CAN I JUST GET OVER THEM ALREADY
I have listened to nothing but Sleeping With Sirens and Pierce The Veil for a long time.

I have forgotten there is other music...

I love tattoos..

My mom says I'm not aloud to get a tattoo, ever.

We'll see about that in two years mother.

Because I seriously have like tons on tattoo ideas.





I spend all day reading one direction fanfction and blogging about them..

I literally spend all day, everyday reading dozens of One Direction fanfictions (I'm not even picky about pairings anymore. As long as its not het) and blogging non stop. (my tumblr)

Yet, I haven't actually listened to them in weeks.

My first crush ever was..

Uncle Jessie, from Full House.

I still think he's hot, man.

I haven't made a post in like 5 days so.

Quick update in my life:

I'm trying to drop P.E and join band.

I fucking hate P.E because there's an odd number of people in that class. Guess who's the one person that always a loner?

I do not understand Geometry whats so ever.

I hate life.

I started a new story.

Two days without self harm.

Those two days are probably going to turn into zero days soon..

I changed my tumblr url.

I am very excited for (aka my reasons for living at this point):

Don't Panic album by All Time Low (October 9th)

Live While We're Young single by One Direction (September 24th)

Take Me Home album by One Direction (November 12th)

 MCR5 and Conventional Weapons


9/3/12

Can I just stay home..

Can I just stay home and listen to Sleeping With Sirens and Pierce The Veil all tomorrow instead of going to school?

Band quiz thingy


Pick 5 bands you love before reading the questions.
Sleeping With Sirens
One Direction
Pierce The Veil
My Chemical Romance
All Time Low
What was the first song you ever heard by 1?
[Sleeping with Sirens] If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn
Favourite lyrics of 3?
[Pierce The Veil] "I kissed the scars on her skin. I still think you're beautiful and I don't ever want to lose my best friend"
How many times have you seen 4 live?
[My Chemical Romance] Once. Maybe again in the future? :D
Favourite song by 3?
[Pierce The Veil] Yeah Boy and Doll Face, Bulletproof Love, Chemical Kids and Mechanical Brides, King For A Day, and A Match Into Water
Is there any song by 2 that makes you sad?
[One Direction] Not really. Their songs are pretty happy, poppy, and upbeat.
What is your favorite song by 1?
[Sleeping With Sirens] A Trophy Fathers Trophy Son, If You Can't Hang, All My Heart, The Bomb, Four Corners and Two Sides..
When did you first get into 2?
[One Direction] January? I hated them for months before; its my nature to hate pop ok?
How did you get into 3?
[Pierce The Veil] I don't remember at all haha
What is your favorite song by 4?
[My Chemical Romance] Drowning Lessons, Demolition Lovers, Bulletproof Heart, DESTROYA, Thank You For The Venom, You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison, Hang em High, I Never Told You What I Do For A Living, pretty much every song by them.. 
What is a good memory concerning 1?
[Sleeping With Sirens] I don't really have one :/
Is there a song by 5 that makes you sad?
[All Time Low] Therapy, Remembering Sunday, Lullabies asdfghjk
What is your favorite song of 2?
[One Direction] Moments, Everything About You, More Than This, Stand Up, Another World, I Should Have Kissed You...

I start school tomorrow.

Yay :) I :) get :) to :) be :) made :) fun :) of :) and :) hated :) by :) everyone :) everyday :)

Seriously, there is a mutual hate between 99 % of my school and me. Let me do the math. There's 400 people at my school, and about five (?) people don't hate me. Wait, I'm shit at math but I'm pretty sure its a lot.

Oh this is my school blog so yeah.

Why I like big cities:

Okay, I'm a super insecure person, and I seriously feel like everyone is staring at me thinking how weird I am.

But in big cities everyone is so weird that it doesn't matter how awkward I am.

25 random songs

25 random song on my iPod on shuffle.


  1. Time Bomb- All Time Low
  2. Helena- My Chemical Romance
  3. Caress Me own- Sublime
  4. Bullet- Hollywood Undead
  5. Disasterology- Pierce The Veil
  6. I'd Rather Die Than Be Famous- Pierce The Veil
  7. Give it All- Rise Against
  8. The Beach- All Time Low
  9. With Ears To See, And Eyes To Hear- Sleeping With Sirens
  10. Doin' Time- Sublime
  11. Emenius Sleepus- Greenday
  12. Everything About You- One Direction
  13. You Kill Me (In A Good Way)- Sleeping With Sirens
  14. Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds- The Beatles 
  15. Blood- My Chemical Romance
  16. Rebel Love Song- Black Veil Brides
  17. Cat and Mouse- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
  18. We're Only Gonna Die For Our Arrogance- Sublime
  19. Mushroom- eatmewhileimhot!
  20. Product Of A Murderer- Of Mice & Men
  21. Poison Heart- The Ramones
  22. Kill Rock N Roll- System of A Down
  23. Follow Me- Breaking Benjamin
  24. Blew- Nirvana
  25. Fire Alarms- Ed Sheeran.
So, that's 25 of the 1,300+ songs on my iPod..

One Song doesn't belong.

Take a guess? [one direction

WHY DO I EVEN LIKE THEM? 

9/2/12

A Match Into Water


I kissed the scars on her skin
I still think you're beautiful
And I don't ever want to lose my best friend
I screamed out "God you vulture,
Bring her back or take me with her"
Asdfghjkl I love this verse. No.. I don't need more ideas...

9/1/12

Ideas... stop it...

Why do i have so many ideas?

Ugh, currently working and three (okay four) stories. I'm determined to write a chapter for each tonight soo.. 

8/31/12

Most flawless Pandora station

So, I have come to the conclusion that the Pierce The Veil Pandora station is the most flawless station ever.

I've been listening for over an hour and its so amazing, every song is perfect!

Flawless Writing

Here are some flawless fanfictions, mostly one shots.

Not necessarily my favorites, but beautifully written.

These are all 5 stars, why aren't these people published, work.

* = possible trigger warning (such as eating disorders, abuse, rape, self harm ect)

These are all so amazing, some of these aren't my otp, which is saying something.

I Painted A Scene That Lit The Stars For Me | Harry/Louis | NC-17 ‘Harry still remembers the first tattoo he got…’ 10,000+ words

(hey baby can you) bleed like me | OT5 | PG-13 Of course they're afraid. Who wouldn't be? 5,000+ words. *

of all the stars most beautiful | Harry/Louis, Zayn/Liam | PG (?) louis sells books and harry makes sandwiches and zayn meets someone on the internet. 5,700 words

It’s a Sports Analogy for Something |Zayn/Harry, Niall/Louis | PG-13 In which they are all Olympics athletes. Except Zayn. He’s just an art student going to university in London. 6,500+ words

sing along and it might just get you through |Louis/Harry | R what happens when a northern indierocker stumbles across a teenybopper popstar in the middle of the street in manchester, basically. 10,500 words

Undressed | OT5 (friendship) | R They come back to the bungalow to help Harry detox from heroin 23,000+ words

running you with red | harry/louis,  zayn/liam. | R The guys are fighters. 6,000 words

a call to arms | Harry/Louis, OT5 (friendship) | PG-13  Louis is a magician, Liam is his cleaning lady and Harry's the prince of a country on the brink of war. 9,000 words

unclean, rotten, endless | Liam/Harry, Zayn/Louis | R (This is not a love story.) Harry Styles plays the violin; Liam Payne plays the piano. Their best friends are in this kind of love that leaves more scars than anything else. They don't fall in love 29,600+ words

we are all illuminated | Harry/Louis | R The one where they're both painters and it shouldn't be a problem, but it is.15,600+ words

Through the Darkest of Your Days | Harry/Louis, OT5 friendship| R Harry thinks he might not really know what okay is, but Louis is warm next to him, solid and constant and questioning. He’s all wide eyes and nerves and vulnerability. And this feels alright, this might be some sort of okay, Harry thinks



Incomplete. To be finished later. 




My Music Taste..

I'll break it down..

Nirvana
Sublime
The Beatles
Led Zeppelin
Queen
The Clash
Rolling Stones
The Ramones
Grateful Dead

The Killers
The Script
Coldplay
The Temper Trap
The Fray
The Black Keys
Snow Patrol

One Direction
Ed Sheeran
Cher Lloyd
The Wanted

Pierce The Veil
Sleeping With Sirens
Falling In Reverse
Bring Me The Horizon
Black Veil Brides
Alesana
Of Mice and Men
Hollywood Undead
Asking Alexandria
Underoath
Hawthorne Heights



All Time Low
Jack's Mannequin 
Panic! at The Disco
Fall Out Boy
My Chemical Romance
The Used
The Maine
Paramore
Good Charlotte
Greenday
Nevershoutnever!

Trapt
Papa Roach
System of a Down
Scars on Broadway
Slipknot
Avenged Sevenfold


Massive Ship Wars..

Let me tell you of this beautiful time in history.

Once upon a time, I could go onto the tag of my OTP (Larry Stylinson) and all that was on the tag was pictures, nice edits, a few text post, and lot of great fanficiton.

I know, I know, hard to believe.

Then, the Elounor shippers came.

Now, the Larry Stylinson tag is one huge war.

If you ship Larry Stylinson, don't post in the Elounor or Gryles tag. If you ship Ziam don't post in the Ziall an Niam tag.

Its easy.

Let's say I, as a Larry shipper, want to rant about an annoying Elounor shipper.

I would be smart and respectful and not tag it with Elounor, because Elounor shippers don't want to read that.

Let's say I am an Elounor Shipper and I want to rant about how deluded Larry shippers are.

I would tag it under Elounor, so my fellow shippers could read it, but not Larry shippers.

But, maybe you like organizing your blog and want everything tagged.

That's fine.

If I'm organized and want to tag my Elounor hate rant with Elounor, then, I can do this:

Why I hate Elounor and its shippers.

*Warning this a rant. Elounor shippers should NOT read*

Read More

Yeah guys, "Read More" was create for a reason.

Harry fucking Styles. No.


(x)

(x)

(x)

IT ISN'T OKAY TO LOOK THIS AMAZINGLY HOT. IT JUST ISN'T FAIR. WHY. ASFGHJ FEELS.

There's like no fanfiction lately?

Idk, it seems like no one is writing new fanfiction or updating lately..

Happy Day :D

I reached my goal on (tumblr)  both my personal and my one direction blow today!


Did MTV rig the VMAs?

So, there's a lot of talk about One Direction's managment paying MTV for One Direction to win the award for "Most Sharable Video" or something like that.

Rumors started after this picture appeared:


It reads:

How does 1D keep getting votes so fast after they start to lose?

[mtv]: 1D's managment gave us $ 150,000 to have this contest and have them win, But you can't say anything about it.



A. It would a hell of a lot more to pay to make and win an award like this

B. Why would MTV tell a fan this? Exactly.

C. We all know how easy it to fake DMs.

It is pretty weird though, Justin generally keeps a steady, even vote stream, while we go up and down like a rollarcoaster.

Considering Justin has 27 mil vs. 1D's 6 mil.

I have a few theories actually..

One is that, well, I've heard before that a lot of Justin followers are fake, created my management and stuff. If you go and look at Justin followers, so many of them are eggs that follow only a handful of completely random people, and have never tweeted before.


See? All these people follow Justin, a few more people, but have never tweeted, and there's thousands of them.

Either way, the contest isn't rigged. I alone have voted hundreds of times!


"Live While We're Young" premier

 ..Or not?

I dunno man, I've been hearing for a while that "Live While We're Young" is going to be played for the first time tomorrow on BBC Radio 1 at 10 am.

But other people are saying Sept. 24?

But if it premiers on Sept. 24, then they won't sing LWWY at the VMAs...

I dunno, but if it does play you can hear it here at:

10 am UK Time
2 am Pacific Time
5 am East Coast Time

I don't know the other times but you can find out what time its playing near you by:

Right click the time on your computer:


Select "Adjust Time/Date"


Click on Addiction Clocks:

Click on "Show this clock"

Click "Select Time Zone"

Select "(UTC) Dublin, Edinburgh, Linbon, London

Rename it (optional)

Then when you click on your clock it will show you UK time show you can always know what time it is where the boys are!

I just want to know!!!

8/30/12

Album cover for the new One Direction album, "Take Me Home"



I for one, really like it.

It playful, cute, bright, sexy and it screams "We're British!" (and the Irish one gets looked in the phone booth)

People That Should Be In One Direction



Casper Lee aka Louis' and Niall's love child


Tom Daley


Dylan O' Brian


Damon Fizzy

These are the 6th, 7th, 8th and 9th members now because I said so.

Chatroom (The Movie)

Okay, so I was casually scrolling my dash right? When I come across this gif:



And I was like, who is this!?

Then I was like, sdfghjkl Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging and wow that dude is hot. So, I looked him up and read about the movies in his Wikipedia page..

And now I'm watching the movie Chatroom


MPREG :P

Okay, so, earlier this day, me and my homie dogs (aka my two best friends) were casually chilling outside of quik-stop, where we literally go everyday, and I'm not sure how it happened, but my best friend and I ended up planning a huge smutty, mpreg story for Larry Stylinson, in front of my other best friend.

My other best friend has never read fanfiction, let alone gay fanfiction, so the idea of smutty mpreg to her was asdfghjkl.

Well, technically she had read smut, if you count me reading her some, multiple times, but she probably wasn't paying attention.

My best friend and I don't even like Mpreg but we have some pretty weird ideas to write one.

Makes me think, this is best friend that knows most fandom stuff, you know? But what would happen if I just read smut to a completely normal person? And showed them some edits..

8/29/12

Things You Don't Know About Me

✖Ashley Tisdale was my idol in 4th grade.

✖My first crush, ever, was Uncle Jesse from Full House

✖Everyone in my family is a (wannabe) hipster and it's hilarious

✖I never uploaded a picture of myself on myspace and I had a facebook for over a year before I did because I'm really insecure

✖It would shock the hell out of everyone that knows me, besides my best friend, that I go on a kinkmeme and read gay porn everyday

✖I like reading about self-harm, suicide, eating disorders, and basically anything angsty

✖I hope no one looks at my history, because its really weird.

✖I have really bad anxiety

✖I have Cyclothymia, which is kind of a mild form of Bipolar Disorder

✖I cry. A lot. (ex. Last week my cousin ripped of my bracelet. I started crying. My mom said I'm a good daughter *snort* I started crying.) and blush. A lot.

✖I have a huge fear of people in my real life finding me on the internet

8/28/12

Favorite Youtubers

My Favorite Youtuber's that you should subscribe to because they're awesome.

Deefizzy (Damon Fizzy)

➜ Janoskians (Luke, Jai, Beau, Skip, and James)

Cyr1216 (Vincent Cyr)

TouchTheSkysFilm (Christian Novelli)

➜ dicasp (Caspar Lee)

Jacks Gap (Jack Harris)

OFFICALsampepper (Sam Pepper)

TheMazziMaz (Mazzi Maz)

Mattg124 (Matt G)

BryanStars (Bryan Stars)

danisnotonfire (Dan Howell)

AmazingPhil (Phil Lester)

I Ship Dylan o'Brian and Harry Styles

goes against my otps..

Dylan O'Brian and Harry Styles. DYLAN SAID HE LOVES HARRY OK. I SHIP THEM. I NEED SOME FANFICTION.



...I ship Danny and Andy

Dandy?

..But I ship Andy with Matt more...


#VoteOneDirection

Tweet it, man, tweet like you've never tweeted before.

The boys deserve it.

Every tweet with the hash tag #VoteOneDirection is a vote, so tweet, tweet, tweet.

You can see who's in the lead here.

Justin Bieber is the lead. Lets fix that yes?

And, Biebers or whatever the hell they're called, "Gayrection" isn't an insult. There's nothing wrong with being gay.

Edit: We're the lead now ('cause we're the most obsessed, mean, horrible, rudest dedicated fandom). But keep voting!!!

8/27/12

No good ff latley

Haven't read a good fanfiction in days.

Dis ain't cool. Get to it Larry shippers. 

Ugh, I guess I'll update my list of fanfictions I've read.

You Found Me

Who I Am
Who I'm Not
And Who I Want To Be

Common Misconceptions About Eating Disorders

~Trigger warning: This post contains possible trigger topics of someone with an eat disorder. If you would like to talk, I'm always here~


Bulletproof Love

My love for you is bulletproof, bur your the one that shot me.

8/25/12

I hate mandaswaggie more than plasticbieber

PB is bitch and insults my babies...

BUT NO ONE CAN FUCKING INSULT KURT COBAIN AND FREDDIE MERCURY. THAT IS NOT OKAY BECAUSE THOSE ARE SERIOUSLY TWO OF THE BEST MUSICIANS OF ALL TIME. YOU CAN'T INSULT THEM YOU JUST CAN'T.


8/24/12

Favorite Album for Every Letter of the Alphabet

A: Abbey Road -The Beatles

B:  Black Parade- My Chemical Romance

C: Chronicles of Life and Death- Good Charlotte

D: Dark Side of The Moon- Pink Floyd

E: Everything In Transit- Jack's Mannequin

F: Fever You Can't Sweat Out- Panic! at The Disco

G: Getting Away With Murder- Papa Roach

H: Hypnotize- System Of A Down (This one was hard..)

I: Imagine- John Lennon (Also a hard one..)

J: I don't have a single album that starts with a "j"

K: Or "k"

L: Led Zeppelin I- Led Zeppelin

M: Magical Mystery Tour- The Beatles

N: Nevermind- Nirvana

O: Only Through The Pain- Trapt

P: Party Scene- All Time Low

Q: Queen- Queen

R: Robbin' The Hood- Sublime (Hard... a lot of albums starts with an "R")

S: Sublime- Sublime (Also a lot of albums)

T: Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge - My Chemical Romance

U: Up All Night- One Direction

V: Viva La Vida Or Death and All His Friends- Coldplay

W: Where Myth Fades To Legend- Alesana

X: X&Y- Coldplay

Y: The Young and the Hopeless- Good Charotte

Z: nada

123: 40oz to Freedom

+_*&^ : "+"- Ed Sheeran

8/23/12

Ipod shuffle survey thing

Put your iPod on shuffle and press next song for each question. Put the song that pops up on the question.


8/22/12

One Direction Fandom Shit

Elounor, Maz, Zerrie, Zayn, Harry, Nemi +more..

Why did my blog get so many views today?

I'm scared; This blog typically gets 500-600 views on a normal day. If I make a really good post, this blog gets 1,000 views.

But, I haven't posted anything since yesterday..

8/21/12

Books to read before summer ends:

I am a reader. Reading is what I do, and love, along with writing, and there is truly nothing on earth I love more.

Except, this summer (okay, being honest, this whole earth) I have only read a half full of books. Actually, I didn't read a single book this summer.

I didn't read a single, but I read hundreds worthy of being published (one direction/Larry Stylinson) fanfictions.

So, this is a list of books I want to read/reread by the end of summer (two weeks), which I probably won't finish because I'm writing so much right now.

  Purge: Rehab Diaries by Nicole Johns
  The Fault In Our Stars by John Green
  Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green and David Levithan
  Looking For Alaska by John Green
  Paper Towns by John Green
  Nineteen Minutes by Jodi Picoult
  Catalyst by Laurie Halse Anderson
  Invincible Summer by Hannah Moskowitz
  Break by Hannah Moskowitz
  Saving June by Hannah Harrington
  The Beginning of the After by Jennifer Castle
  The Thing About the Truth by Lauren Barnholdt
  Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson

I want to ride a train

I've never ridden a train. Is that weird?

Wait, does the subway count as a train? Well, I don't count it.

I actually really like the subway. Except I hate being with tons of people I don't know, so I kind of hate it too.

But like, yeah, I want to go on a train, that's above ground and like an overnight train.

8/20/12

Playlist to what I'm currently writting..

I'm currently working on three pieces, all original, plus some ideas..

Shameless: Basically, a girl is dating a famous guy to get her band famous. I've had this idea since Nov. and I'm finally getting around to it.

Lights Will Guide You Home: Basically, about a boy that has a habit of running away, he's looking for a distraction one day when he runs into a girl who's his opposite.

Freefall: This guy has sex with his girl and she's dead the next day. Everyone besides her sister is convinced she committed suicide. The girls sister thinks the boy murdered her. When he's proven innocent, they team up to figure out who really killed her.

Idea #1: An eating disorder story thing. The idea is a gay guy (17?) and his slightly older boyfriend (20?) yeah, and I don't really know..

Idea #2: ok so, they're like a glass (maybe not glass..) wall that separates two sides of the world, and like one side is taught that the other side is evil vise versa.. idk.. like the prince/princess falls in love with the other prince/princess.

Random, but I can't write het. fanfiction but I can't write slash orignal stuff. I'm so weird. Also, I've never written anything about lesbians.. I don't think I can. Maybe I'll try..

Playlist:

Enigma- Trapt
Nothing- Script
When We Were Young- The Killers
Boulevard of Broken Dreams- Greenday
I'm Yours (cover)- One Direction
Romeo and Juliet- The Killers
Wonderwall (cover)- One Direction
Wonderwall (cover)- Ed Sheeran
You Found Me- The Fray
Viva La Vida- Coldplay
Wayfaring Stranger- Ed Sheeran
Fix You- Coldplay
The Scientist- Coldplay
Use Somebody (vocals only)-One Direction
Skinny Love (cover)- Ed Sheerean
Chill Murray- Young Science
She's a Handsome Woman- Panic! at the Disco
My Heart- Paramore
Little Lady- Ed Sheeran
Read All About It- Emeli Sande
Desert Song- My Chemical Romance
How To Save A Life- The Fray


When I'm a parent...

My kid wants to go to a concert? I'll get VIP

My kid wants to drive 15 hours to go see her idol? Let's bring the best friend along.

My kid wants to wait all day to go to signing? Sure, I'll pack snacks.

My kid is reading/writing gay porn? Ha ha, better than het.

My kid wants to see an 'R' movie? No problem.

My kid an unlimited internet cell phone plan because they need tumblr and tweet 24/7? Duh.

My kid is gay/pan/bi? Thats fine.

My kid would rather blog all evening than hang out with friends? Awesome.

My kid had internet friends? Well, if we're ever in that state..

My kid wants to be out past ten on a school night? Fine.


I hope they make us write what i did this summer essays...

I start school Sept. 4 (i think) and I really hope they make us write "What I did this summer" essays so I can write this:

this summer was so amazing, and productive! i did a lot! i spent 97% of my summer in my room, eating on this magical website with rainbows and unicorns. i would wake up at noon and go to sleep at four, so be lucky im here right now.

so basically i read a lot of really good fanfiction, check out my fic rec yeah? and i read some really good ANALysis! I got GIMP the photo editing program and it basically changed my life ok. I'm close to 1,000 followers and that basically all i want in life ok? help a sista out. i rebloged alot and posted some stuff.

oh yeah and i ship two flawless homosexuals so fucking hard and read so much smut. ah man i read my first incest and so much underage i am going to hell probs.

it wasn't all fun and games tho. first of all, TIME DIFFERENCES like..why? oh and shipping wars (Larry for life bro. and ziam) DO YOU NOT SEE TRUE LOVE?? peeps are cray. ugh then theres ignorant people. elounor shipers ew. people that don't update fanfiction.

and omg. if you think that harry "cuppycake kitten" styles tops 100% of the time u r deluded. i use to be like totally louis tops 100% of the time. but i think he gives harry turns now, maybe 50 50 idk. im still waiting for da sex tape, you feel me?

and feels. puppy liam feels. hobo zayn feels.HEIght differnce feels. beanie feels. tummy feels. lets fuck niall feels WHY WHY WHY

IF YOU'RE A FAN OF 1D JUST A FAN AND NOT FUCKING OBSESSED HOW HOW DO YOU DO THAT LISTEN TO ONE DIRECTION THEY SAID THEY'RE HOT THEY SAID THEY NEVER SAID HOW MUCH PAYNE THEY WOULD BRING.

yeah, i regret nada.

8/19/12

Back to school shopping

*Warning: I'm going to shamelessly promote my favorite brands here*

Wow.

Okay, so usually around this time I have a whole new wardrobe ready for school, but not this year.

I'm going to go ahead and blame this on One Direction and Tumblr, because I'm afraid to leave my house now so that kind of takes away from my shopping addiction, which is probably the only reason my parents don't completely hate 1D.

Lol, I've only bought one shirt, which is crazy for me, because I seriously buy so many shirts.


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It looks way cuter on me, just for the record.

Okay, so this shirt is called Mason Tee and comes in two colors (I bought the one shown in the picture).

Its from the brand Threads 4 Thought which is all organic clothes and its all really cute. I recently discovered it and I'm dif. going to buy more.

I bought this shirt in small, but its pretty big. I'd recomend going down a size. I'm too lazy to return it and stuff, so I'll just keep this one. Its cool.

This is the Thread 4 Thought website, they have free shipping and free returns which is the ost amazing thing ever, plus they sell the brand at Urban Outfitters and American Apparel, and Nordstrom (I think).

I bought some jeans from a weir brand I've never heard of, but they were cute, so, yeah.

Okay, so, you know how TOMs send you like a catalog in the mail and stuff? I got one a few days ago, and just looked at it and they had this wine colored pair, like the original classic styles, but when I was looking for them online they didn't have them on the site? And they didn't have them at Journey's either. Wahh.

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I really like this (above) pair too. But I really want the non-existing wine colored ones! If I wasn't lazy I would post the picture from the cat.

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 My mom bought me this shirt for super cheap. You know, Team GB and such.

She also bought me a pair of jeans, from whatever their brand is called.

And a One Direction shirt from Hot Topic, but I'm tried of this so yeah.



8/18/12

terms used in fanfiction

Terms commonly used:

-Slash: Male/Male or Female/Female. So, gay action happens. Female/Female is sometimes called FemSlash.

-Yaoi: the term Yaoi is mostly used in Anime or Manga only. Its two (or more) guys in a sexual relationship. Gay porn, basically.

-Yuri: same thing as Yaoi, but with females

-Het: Male/Female. Boring stuff.

-Ship/Shipping: Basically a pairing you want to be together, or are together and you approve.

ex: I ship Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson
translate: I want Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson to be in a relationship. 

-Canon: official or established relations.

ex. Bella and Edward are canon

-OTP: One True Pairing; basically the pairing that ruins your life, you care about them more than yourself and you feel like their relationship is more important than your own if you had a relationship but you don't because you spend too much time focused on their relationship.

ex. Larry Stylinson is my otp.

AU: Another/Alternative Universe;

ex. One Direction are normal friends that go to college;

-One Shot: one chaptered fic, can have from 100-100,000+ words

-Drabble: like a one shot but shorter

-WIP: work in progress; its not complete, the writer is still working on it

-Fic Rec: A list an author or read has of fanfictions they like.

-Trigger Warning; TW, if the chapter/story contains something that can trig thoughts, panic attack ect,

ex. Self harm, suicide, abuse

-Non-Con: someone get raped

-Dub-con: not raped, but they didn't want it

-OC: Original Character; character made up by the author, doesn't exist in the original world. (OFC is original female char. OMC is original male char.)

ex. Harry/OFC would be Harry in a relationship with a character I created

-POV: point of view; who's point of view the stories in. 3rd, 2nd, 1st, and the person.

ex. Twilight is in Bella POV and in 1st person

-Fluff: cute light hearted romance, no drama, or sadness

-Angst: a depressing feel to the story, someone dies, or someone sad, or depressed

-Songfic: a story based on a song

-smut: porn really. fucking. SEX

-co-write: written with two author

-prompt: a prompt is an idea for a story or one shot. If someone takes prompts, you can give them the idea and they'll write it.


I basically only read slash angst. smut or fluff sometimes. never het. 

Favorite One Direction Fanfiction

Yes, okay. I know I literally have ten or more post with the title "Favorite One Direction Fanfiction", but from now on this is my fav fics post. So, don't listen to anything else. This is a list of 254 fanfictions I've read. This is fanfiction tag, which has all my previous lists. 

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This list is mostly but not all Larry Stylinson. No het. though.


This list isn't in order js


This is pretty long, lol, I'm going to *try and limit myself to 20 fics.


Mostly from tumblr, but some from ao3 and livejornal. everything on fanfiction.net and wattpad is shit


Nothing too dirty on here. Or at all really. No incest or really underage- although I do read that stuff.


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+Bittersweet Pill by Leandra:  Harry was a distraction from the moment Louis met him. Louis never dealt well with distractions; Harry, on the other hand, preferred many of them. Drug!AU


Type: Chaptered/ work in progress

Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: Drugs, smut, self harm.
Note: I love, love, love this fic! One of my all time favorites. Ever. This is the exact thing I've wanted to read. Plus, I made the banner shown on the masterpost. The rest of her stuff is gold, she has a porn star fic, and a prostitute fic too! 

+ Thirteen Reasons Why by LidaYou can’t stop the future. You can’t rewind the past. The only way to learn the secret is to press play…Louis Tomlinson doesn’t want anything to do with the tapes Harry Styles made. Harry is dead. His secrets should be buried with him. Then Harry’s voice tells Louis that his name is on the tapes—and that he is, in some way, responsible for his death. All through the night, Louis keeps listening. He follows Harry’s recorded words through the streets of London….and what he discovers changes his life forever. (Based on the book Thirteen Reasons Why by Jay Asher)


Type: Chaptered/ Complete

Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: Self harms, eating disorder, suicide, mentions of rape.
Note: I hate the book Thirteen Reasons Why, so I almost didn't read this, but I'm so glad I did! Lida is amazing. Both the first and the sequel is amazing, I can't wait for more of the threequel. This & this is the sequel (complete) , and threequel (WIP). Its worth the read :)

+Web Of Lies by MorganHarry had two, fairly well kept secrets in his life. But Harry messed up big with the two secrets, allowed the two secrets to become too intertwined. And now that someone knew the first secret, his web of lies was beginning to unravel around him. 


Type: Chaptered/ complete

Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: Self harm, suicide 
Note: I love Morgan! I believe she's one of the best writers in this fandom! Every single this she writes is amazing! Her one shot, her chaptered fics. Everything. She's like my idol. asdfghjkl; Flawless. There is a one shot sequel (Falling) to this amazing fic.

+Teacher's Pet by Morgan: It was supposed to be a quick and easy gig: Teacher’s Assistant. All Louis had to do was spend a few months assigning reading and grading reports, and then he could continue his wayward life. He wasn’t supposed to get attached, especially not to one of his students. (Student/Teacher AU)


Type: Chapter/ Complete

Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: Under age? " Includes triggers that may affect those with past physical, mental, or sexual abuse. "
Note: (I'm trying my hardest to to put every morgan fic here) Before I read this fic, I hated student-teacher relations fics with a passion. This fic brought new light to my eyes. (Has a work in progress sequel: here)

+New Mistakes Series by Morgan 


New Mistakes: Young people have this idea of invincibility, enforced by the freedoms and lifestyle that come with that age. But no one is invincible and mistakes are constantly made, mistakes that don’t just hurt themselves, but the ones they love. (Basically, Harry has has a two year old son he never mention)


Family Ties: Blood is thicker than water, or so the saying goes. But when a family isn’t bound by blood, how many hits can it take, before it goes down in flames? Touring around the country isn’t easy for any band, but toting around a toddler, just made it that much harder.


The Old and The New: Turning thirteen is the end of all innocence and the start of pure hell. Hell for the new teenager, and hell for the family that’s forced to live with him. One Direction knew how to raise an adorable child, but the Luke that comes home from boarding school? Well that was a different story. Change is inevitable in families, in more ways than one


Same Mistakes:  History has a funny way of repeating itself. A mistake of Harry’s comes back to haunt him once again, and puts to question everything he knows in his life. Including his relationship with Louis



Type
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Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: None? Teenage preg?
Note: (I swear this is the last morgan fic) Okay, I almost didn't read this because I thought it was MPREG which I hate. But it's not. This is seriously the cutest fic, I've ever read. But it has a lot of angst. Just read it and check out the rest of Morgie's oneshot, esp. 52 Birthday's With Lou and The Breakfast Club.

+For Angels To Fly by Hannah: Louis isn’t in love with a guy and Harry doesn’t need saving. Neither of these things end up being entirely true.



Type: Chaptered/ complete
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: Prostitution, drugs and alcohol
Note: Hm, don't have much to say besides, its amazing.

+Porcelain by Raven: Harry Styles has hit an all new low, and it’s up to Louis Tomlinson, the newest edition to One Direction, to fix him. But what people don’t know is that Harry Styles is fragile—like porcelain—and one wrong move will make him in pieces and impossible to mend. Is Louis Tomlinson the one to do the job justice?


Type: Chaptered/ complete
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: None? Angst? 
Note: First, this story is password protected, so go ask Raven, she'll give it to you. Next, I freaking love this story and have read it countless times. There's not really a sequel but a series of one shots that go along to it.


+At Different Ends by Raven : Harry Styles has been reappearing in Louis Tomlinson’s dreams in a haunting, and almost cruel way. “But why?” Louis asks himself, “He’s been dead for three months.” 



Type: Chaptered/ complete
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: None? Angst? 
Note: Again, ask Raven for the password. Love this fic, not much else to say.

+Seventh Heaven by condescendingsmirk:  louis is everything harry’s ever wanted to be and harry is everything louis never knew he needed. (harry skips a couple grades and ends up in louis’ class.)



Type: Chaptered/ work in progress
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: some drugs, and drinking
Note: Summary doesn't give this story justice. Its motherfucking flawless. 

+One of Her Students by Jenny:  Everything changes when one day Louis decides to visit the school that his girlfriend, Eleanor, works at. Out of everything that he could notice in the school, he notices a quiet boy with curly hair who’s name is Harry. He comes to learn that Harry has secrets. And more problems come up when he starts having feelings for one of his girlfriend’s students.



Type: Chaptered/ complete
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: some drugs, and drinking
Note: Mmm. Adore this story!

+The Best Laid Plans by Emma: Harry Styles is England’s answer to Justin Bieber. He has taken the country by storm and everybody loves him.


However, there is one band that absolutely cannot stand his success, and that band is One Direction, who only years before was the biggest, newest, best thing to happen to the music industry.


When Harry Styles publicly admits to having a crush on One Direction member Louis Tomlinson, the band makes a plan:

Use Harry’s fame to get back into business.


Type: Chaptered/ wip
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: none?
Note: Wow! I love this story. 

+Dangerous Temptations by thatlarrything *no summary provided by the author* Pretty much, Louis and Eleanor are married and have a kid who's best friends with Harry's little brother. You can predict the rest ;)



Type: Chaptered/ complete
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: underage sex, abuse
Note: I'm horrible at summaries okay. But this story is hot. And dark? And I read it while I was in san fran so it has a hipster feel and set in san fran.

+Lego House by Victoria: Louis Tomlinson was just about at the end of his rope, caught up in the mess he’d created for himself, stranded at the center of a maze. Harry Styles was doing just fine the way thing were. He worked at night and slept through the day. He made enough money to just get by. Everything was fine. But one night seemed to change everything. Coming from very opposite sides of town, the two boys meet. One saves the other in more ways than one, and though neither expect a future extended past sunrise, fate seems to have other plans….



Type: Chaptered/ wip
Pairing: Larry Stylinson 
Warning: sex (duh), drugs, self harm
Note: Me loves hooker fics!! Mh, this is probably the best.

~There is currently 11 fics, I haven't gotten to one shots so, its aim for less than 40 fics~


+Show Me the Lights by mentalistecbm: harry squints up at him and his trodden hair and shirt sticking to his chest and those stupid fucking eyes, smile wrinkles at only nineteen and he realizes that yeah, sure, this is definitely love. or at least something like it, something ten times more painful and enjoyable and solid, a million love songs reenacted out and the music’s pounding in his skull, a fissure sealed into the very soul of him. (alternately: leeds.)



Type: oneshot
Pairing: Larry Stylinson 
Warning: smut
Note: leeeeddddsss. This is the best leeds fic I've read

+The World's Not Waiting by drunktuesday: A new guy joins the tour. Harry likes him, Louis...does not.



Type: oneshot
Pairing: Larry Stylinson w/ harry/omc
Warning: nada
Note: hehe

+st. peter's school for musically gifted boys by Elle: the boys of st. peter's school for musically gifted, and the stories they haven't yet told


tell me you don't want my kiss: at a exclusive, wealthy musical boarding school, louis is reckless, popular and ringleader of the golden boys. he meets and regrettably falls for harry, a sophomore with not enough innocence and too much talent. zayn is a junior heartthrob, niall is captain of every team imaginable, and liam just tries not to worry too much.


i was the reason for that smile: liam, one of the four golden boys, is cello player and irrecoverably and sadly in love with his heartthrob best friend, zayn. liam is the only one allowed to unravel the enigmas that is louis tomlinson, but he's often weighed down by the secrets zayn  manipulates him into keeping.


spare me what you're thinking, tell me a lie: harry is now a senior, and spends his summer with louis while he attends university. liam and zayn are finally allowed time together only for it to be taken away again with zayn's impending engagement. harry and louis argue, make love, and try to figure out just how deep  this grave they've dug for themselves really is.


what you're missing, baby: zayn calls off his engagement and finally faces his demons in hopes to win liam back. his second chance comes when he goes to find liam in spain on a whim. there, they explore the nature of their highly secretive, rule-obsessed relationship and try to ward away some of the insecurities that still plague them. scars don't always heal so easily. it's christmas time, and liam is concerned with harry's drastic drop in weight and louis' apathy towards the issue


you're leaving me (tonight): after the loss of his twin sister and best friend, niall falls into seclusion and ignores his life. instead of going to uni, he takes a trip to greece on a whim. there he meets a girl with wild dark hair and too much compassion. when he realizes he's in love with her, he flees home to find zayn's father has died and harry's condition becomes life-threatening. louis admits his feelings about the boy with the stars in his eyes, liam and zayn finally have their chance at happiness and niall mends his heart and learns to love gemma like she deserves.


cigarette kisses: louis and harry during spring break after harry's diagnosis. a lazy morning of shot gunning, love making, and all those words those boys can't quite say yet


beam and anchor: liam and zayn escape to spain once again for spring break. though his father has died, the remnants of zayn's abuse is still very well alive. liam tries his best to sooth the scars zayn wants so desperately to hide


incandescent bones: harry's condition morphs into something far more sinister as he vies for louis' attentions, and it takes a turn for the worse. after an accident, harry promises that he'll try to get better, and louis is running out of options


sun dance: zayn and liam and the sunny june mornings in their flat. zayn knee is worsening and liam smells like that brick of soap he likes too much. niall is keeping a secret and louis has sent harry away so he can get healthy. once again, liam tries to pick up the pieces and zayn is slightly in awe of him 



Type: series/complete
Pairing: Larry Stylinson, Ziam, Gemma/Niall
Warning: sex, drugs, drinking, language, underage, abuse, angst, medial/health issues
Note: its.. a lot. i know, but.. THIS FIC IS SERIOUSLY MY FAVORITE FIC IN THE ENTIRE WORD I RE-READ AT LEAST ONCE A WEEK AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH AND ITS PERFECT AND CAN I MARRY IT you have to join the commuinty though i believe

+May You Enjoy Your New Life by higherarrow fic:  When One Direction begins, Harry Styles is a sixteen-year-old boy foundering under the pressure of impending fatherhood. His ability to balance the sobering responsibility of caring for his tiny daughter, Millie, and the exhilaration of seeing his own dreams coming to fruition affects not only his future, but those of Liam, Zayn, Niall, and Louis, who never expected fealty to be the key to their success. But Liam is the first to show him how to grow up without growing old, and Zayn is the first to defend from the public what is private and precious. Louis -- Louis is the first for a lot of things; for most of the moments of Millie's life and for the moments of Harry's that matter. And Niall is the first to toast when Millie is born: Go maire sibh bhur saol nua -- 'may you enjoy your new life.'



Type: chaptered/ wip
Pairing: Larry Stylinson mainly
Warning: nada mucho
Note: er this fic is amazing! like seriously sometimes i forget that harry doesn't really have a daughter

+Perfect Timing by El: Harry and Louis live in a world where the love of their life is determined by a timer embedded in the wrist of every citizen, counting down to the moment when they will meet their soulmate. Larry meet and immediately discover that the dates on their timers do not match up.


Type: Chaptered/ complete
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: None? Angst? 
Note: El is amazing. All her stuff us bril, but this is my favorite story by her! Check out her Louis-turns-to-glass au, and her blind! harry au here.


+Hiding Out in the Kitchen by Littlemousling: Harry's in an internationally famous boyband with his three best mates, he gets laid on a pretty regular basis, and he's headed to Australia in a week. He doesn't need anything else, and he certainly doesn't need a boyfriend. If this nice guy he met in a coffeeshop wants to date him, great—but that's all it is. Right?

Type: one shot 28,000+
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: None? Angst?
Note: EH I adore this!! I swear I read sequel but apparently not?


+Set My Regrets On Fire by Pendules: Harry's in an indie rock band, and Louis is Britain's hottest new popstar. They don't meet by coincidence.

+Always Holding On To Stars

Type: one shot/ series
Pairing: Larry Stylinson
Warning: None? Angst?
Note: lovvveeeeee. Rocker Harry > everything else

+Throught Your Darkest Days by robpatFF: "Harry thinks he might not really know what okay is, but Louis is warm next to him, solid and constant and questioning. He’s all wide eyes and nerves and vulnerability. And this feels alright, this might be some sort of okay, Harry thinks."

Type: one shot 35,000+
Pairing: Larry Stylinson and ot5 friendship
Warning: Alcoholism
Note: This is probs my favorite oneshot ever. read it.


+Undressed by theviolinst: They come back to the bungalow to help Harry detox from heroin.

Type: one shot 23,000+
Pairing: ot5 friendship
Warning: Alcoholism
Note: asdfgh wait this and the previous one shot plus the next two are all tied for my favorite...

+A Call To Arms by captainroyalty:  Louis is a magician, Liam is his cleaning lady and Harry's the prince of a country on the brink of war.

Type: one shot 9,000+
Pairing: larry stylinson, ot5 friendship
Warning: nothing it think, maybe angst
Note: Okay, i was expecting a weird medieval harry potter thing, so I almost didn't read it. I'm so glad I did.  errrrrr i love it so much!

+Its Only Fair To Tell You (I'm a bit cuckoo) by Tamazinrose: there are early mornings when you'd rather stay all warm and snuggly and sleeping in your bed, but you force yourself to get up and shower and get dressed, and sometimes you have to force harry to get up and shower and get dressed too.

Type: one shot 6,900+
Pairing: larry stylinson
Warning: bi polar-ness, depression, suicide..
Note: k. so yeah. I love this fic and have read it so many time. Tamazinrose is my favorite author in the fandom, no doubt. I love and have read every single thing she's written. She's my queen and runs the angst meme. i love her. the rest of her stuff is here because i'm not gonna rec like thirty fics. oh, and i believe you have to add her as a friend to read her stuff.


+And The Reason Is You by youngandreckless: Zayn and Harry are the socialite sons of two high-end record producers and the heirs to the future of Myles Records. The two are reckless, loud and out of control. They have no regard for reputation or responsibility. Liam and Louis work for Horan’s catering, their friend Niall’s catering business, and are at almost every event that Myles Records throws. After one disastrous night, Zayn and Harry are dragged home upon request by Paul, Liam and Louis.


Type: chaptered/ wip
Pairing: larry stylinson, ziam, nosh
Warning: angst and fluff -if you take that as a warning
Note: love this!! fav chaptered on that site

+The Next Big Thing by PoorMedea: Louis Tomlinson is an out of work guitarist who has no idea how he's going to make next month's rent.

Harry Styles is the third-place finalist on X-Factor, a show Louis emphatically doesn't watch.

Their worlds collide.


Type: chaptered/ wip
Pairing: larry stylinson
Warning: nada really
Note: love this!!!!

+Wake Me Up Series by Stylinsons:

As It Seems: triplets!au harry pines for louis like a lovesick stuttery teenager.

You and I: There’s a bit of drama over university and definitions, and Louis being far too magnanimous in trying to have a relationship with Harry through his brothers.

Collide: Ed reveals a secret in the worst possible way, Louis can't handle the triplet "thing" much longer and Harry makes some bad decisions.


Type
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Pairing: larry stylinson
Warning: nada really
Note: wow! this is my favorite of all the twins and triplets stuff that was attacking last month!! Also, I'm tempted to rec more of Stylinson's work but I won't so check out her other stuff.

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Okay that's it! I literally spent maybe four hours working on this list! Out of the like, 280 fanfictions I've read, these are my favorites. I recommend these fanfictions so much!


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