7/31/12

I WILL not be a slacker this year!

Ok, I've been saying this every year since I was in like 6th grade, but I mean it this time!


Because last year, I really did no homework at all.


Pretty much, if I want to leave this hell hole asap, and move to an apartment in San Francisco in like three years, then I need to get not terrible grades, because I spent 1/3 of my college fund this year.


So, I need good grades so I can go to university, (for what i don't know..) then move to San Fran which is like my dream place. Except for the fact its so close to my current residence. 

7/30/12

SHIP CHALLENGE


SHIP CHALLENGE
SHIP CHALLENGE!
Five ships you’re into right now:
1. Larry Stylinson
2. Nosh
3. Ziall
4. Ziam
5. Payzer 
Three ships you liked, but don’t anymore.
6. Haroline
7. Elandy
8. Zouis
Three ships you never liked.
9. Elounor
10. Nouis
11. Narry
Three ships you’re curious about, but don’t actually ship.
13. LiLo
14. Zarry
15. Lirry

QUESTIONS
1. Why do you dislike #11 so much?
(Narry) Lol, its not that much, I just don't like them in a romanceship
2. Who is someone you know that ships #14?
(Zarry) Peeps on Tumblr
3. What would be your ideal scenario for couple #3?
(Ziall) I can think of a few. Ohh drunk Ziall sex!
4. Which is your favorite moment for couple #1?
(Larry) 1 moment?! Well, I must go with the Wellington kiss!
5. How long have you been following couple #5?
(Payzer) Since I joined this fandom!
6. What’s the story with #8? What made you stop liking them/caring?
(Zouis) Eh, tbh, I can only ship Louis with Harry, and no one else.
7. You have the power to make one ship non-existent. Choose from #10 or #11.
(Nouis/Narry) Relationship wise, Nouis, I'm fine with all bromances/friendships though.
8. Which ship do you prefer, #2 or #4?
(Nosh/Ziam) Wut?! No, you can't ask me that. I refuse to answer.
9. What interests you about #14?
Harry: Zayn, you're hot
Zayn: Harry, you're hot
Harry: We're both hot.
Zayn: Lets have sex
Harry: ok
10. Why did you stop liking #6?
(Haroline) Well, they broke up, and Harry is with Lou. Tbh, I love cougar relationships.
11. Did your lack of interest in #9 kill your interest in the fandom?
(Elounor) Nothing could ever kill my interest in 1D.
12. What’s a song that reminds you of #5?
(Payzer) Hm.. Any cute-romancey song.
13. If you could have any of these two pairings double-date, who would it be?
Larry and Ziall, probs.
4. Have #2 kissed yet? 
(Nosh). Lol, I seriously think so.
15. Did #4 have a happy ending?
(Ziam) Well, Liam is with Danielle and Zayn is with Perrie, but I think Ziam is end game.
16. What would make you start shipping #13?
(LiLo) Romance wise, nothing, unless they dated, which will never happen.
17. If only one could happen, which would you prefer, #2 or #5? 
(Nosh/Payzer) Noshhhhh
18. Which of these ships do you love the most?
LARRY HOMOSEXUAL AS FUCK STYLINSON

If I don't finish this story I will die.

I never, never ever plan my stories out. Ever. I always go with the flow, you know?


Well, last year I completed three novels 30,000-50,000 words each.


This year, what have I completed: Starting 30+ stories all with like three chapters. The longest thing I've completed was 10,000 words or something.


Unless you count a co-written story which was actually longer than anything I've written before. But I only wrote half so.


So, last weeks, I got an idea (maybe I've been watching too much tv..) but basically, its called Freefall, "its Freefall and do it all again" when though that line has nothing to do with that story. But anywho, its about a boy named River who hooks up with a girl name Bridget, and the next day Bridget is dead, suspected as suicide. Kendall, Bridget's sister, is sure that Bridget was murdered, at first she suspects its River, but when she finds out its not, they team up to find out who really killed her and why.


I spent literally two entire days writing a character description (like 500+ words each) on every character mentioned in the story  and planned out every chapter.


I've never outlined a story before so lets see how that works out.


I also wrote the first chapter five times. I never re-read or re-write my work. Ever, not until I finish an entire story, unless I really hate it. So, I wrote five 2,000+ word chapter (which is really, really short for me..) then sent them all to my best friend, and she picked her favorite chapter.


Except, the only thing is I don't know who the killer should be?


So, yeah, I've never work this hard before so I'm gonna die if I don't finish this story.

I even spent half and hour making a 200 song writing playlist.



7/29/12

I should expand my wardrobe

This is the clothes I own:

skinny jeans
band tee's
crop tops
tank tops
tie die shirts

Cyclothymia

Never heard this word before in life.


Ok, so I took a "are you depressed?" quiz online. I pretty much just googled "are you depressed quiz". The first link that came up was http://www.depressedtest.com 


So, I took the quiz and my results were kind of scattered, but I had high on bi polar and extremely high Cyclothmia.



"The depressive or hypomania symptoms of cyclothymia may last for a few days to several weeks at a time, with brief intervals of normal mood in between. Personality changes are often evident to family and friends. Individuals who have a stable mood for longer than two months at a time are not likely cyclothymic. Symptoms may be mimicked by substance abuse, borderline personality disorder, or other mood disorder. A family history of depressive or bipolar disorders increases the risk.


Symptoms of Cyclothymia
Hypomanic Phase
Excessive confidence and self-esteem
Reduced ability to concentrate, easily distracted
Sleep difficulties, excessive energy
Heightened irritability
Reduced inhibitions, may make foolish decisions
Hypomania lasts between several days and several weeks


Depressive Phase
Feelings of inadequacy, low self-confidence
Difficulty falling asleep, unrestful sleep
Fatigue, lack of energy
Negative thinking, feelings of guilt and sadness
Loss of interest in formerly enjoyable activities
Depression lasting between several days and several weeks"


Lololololololol


Literally describes me perfectly/

7/28/12

Graceland

Ok, since forever I've been wanting to go on a road trip from Long Beach, to Seattle, to Graceland, finally to New York.

Like, I've literally spent hours and hours looking a maps, hotels, ect. and its my dream to go on that road trip.

For the last few days I haven't shut up about Graceland, ask any of my friends.

So, today, I was on Instagram, which I hardly ever am, and I discovered my cousin is currently Graceland.

Ok.

7/26/12

How I Spent My Summer

Dear Teachers,


I know you're going to ask this of me, or I might as well get started.


My normal summer day consisted of this:


Noon: wake up/eat (breakfast always consisted of a nutella sandwich)
1-4: computer
4: lunch
4:15-8: computer
8-8:15: dinner
8:15-4:00: computer


now, you might be wondering what exactly i did on the computer:


Ship my otp (Larry Stylinson)
laughed at irrelevant people on facebook
read lots of fanfiction
twitter my babes about 1,000 times per day
reblogs stuff
made text post 
edited peoples
fought with Elounor shippers
watched twitcams (when lucky)
stalked one direction 
fan girled over one direction

Rants about society

Warning: Rant


~
The entertainment industry is a big fucking joke.


To be honest, our whole society as a hole is a fucking joke.


I'll start with the entertainment part. Fame.


The subject of One Direction.


One Direction is famous because of their looks, and there is no denying it. This is coming from me, a fifteen year old girl with  30+ poster covering every inch of my wall.


Even when One Direction was being put together, Simon was looking for boys with the look, you know? I'll assure you, if  One Direction was ugly, they would not being were they are today. There faces sells. 


Like, if I see a magazine, with a huge poster of one of the boys, I'll buy it so I can put there pretty faces on my wall. I could name dozens of girls that only like One Direction and buy their stuff because they're cute.


I'm not saying they don't have talent, because they do (talent wasted on bubblegum pop music), but they got where they are because of there looks. I'd say a big fraction of the people that voted for them on x-factor were doing it because they're cute.


When was the last time a famous band didn't have a cute lead singer?


When was the last time a movie didn't have a hot lead actor and actress?


Honestly, all you need is a cute face and you've made it in the industry. 


When in fucking books the characters are always described as attractive.

Even on fucking tumblr, when was the last time you saw an unattractive "tumblr famous" person?


"lms" for a rate is all over my facebook everyday. 


"omg im so ugly" says the pretty teenage girl as she posts a picture on facebook, knowing how many "likes" it will get.


"like my picture if you think im pretty"


And, my god, do not get me stated on "shipping". (a twitter/tumblr thing)


"omg u r so pretty! you deserve harry!!! im so jealous"


Completely different subject, but like, last week I was explaining to my cousin "Larry Stylinson" (she's not really a fan, but I got her to ship it) and my brother, who's 5, asked me what gay was, I said "when two boys love each other" and he said " ew boys don't like each other".


But I don't even understand why he would say "ew". My parents have never acknowledged homosexuality as being bad, like even my cousin is gay.


Yet, I asked my cousin (15) what his thoughts on gay marriage was and he said "everyone should just be allowed to do what they want" my other cousin (11, female) thinks its weird, my other cousin (12) just said that Harry and Louis are gay.


But like, honestly, there is nothing on earth that annoys me more than when people say "gay" as an insult.


Guy at school: One Direction is gay
Me: So?
Friend: If you say one direction is gay, she's gonna think you like them.
Guy: I meant it as an insult.

girl at school: ew i hate the color pink its so girly
me: its a color. how can you dislike it?


God, I just do not understand this world, and how fucking arrogant everyone is.

7/25/12

Why does Eleanor have a million followers?

Well, not a million away but she's like what, a thousand away? 998,600 followers. What exactly does she do? She's just like every other 20 years old. She shops and goes to Starbucks. Oh, wait. She's Eleanor-girlfriend-of-louis-from-one-direction. 


Yet, Josh Devine (who's the drum of One Direction and actually does something) only has 600,000 (or something)


Jon, Dan, and Sandy (you know, the people that play instruments in said band?) all have under 200,000.


ok.

7/23/12

Teen Wolf

So, like a year and a half ago, I have so excited for Teen Wolf to come out. I saw the cast in a magazine, Teen Vouge, in like February 2011.

But then when I show came out, I watched one episode, then started my "I'm too cool for TV" thing.

So, yeah, I just spent like the last eight hours of my life.

So this is the list of show's I like:


  • American Horror Story
  • Skins
  • Pretty Little Liars
  • Teen Wolf 
I use to like Vampire Diaries. I read the books like five years ago, so I was so excited for the TV show. I liked the first season, but then I was like, no. Oh, right 90210 was my favorite show for years. 

And, from like 10-14 I watched the food network channel, TLC, and talk shows a lot.

Last summer I would watch the news and judge shows... And whenever the fuck The Real World: Cancun was on, I watched it, and love it.

Lol, when Jersey Shore was going to be on, I was excited. Then I saw the first five minutes and never watched it again.

7/22/12

My first One Direction drawing

Aw :) Today while I was looking through my One Direction album, I found the first piece of 1D artwork I ever made. I drew this drawing for my friend so long ago, the day after I found out of her secret tumblr life and that she liked One Direction!

God, I can't believe how long ago it was! In January or December I think. I remember I was really proud of how Zayn's hair turned out.

7/21/12

Harry's hi tattoo


It's real guys. He got his boyfriends hand writing tattooed on him! *Larry Feels*.

Haha to the deluded people that thought it was shappie.

Also, is he gonna get it filled cuz it looks like a little kids chalkboard haha

i swear this is my last harry post for the day.

They're gonna be in leeds. enough said. i must save my energy for leeds and july 23.

My little cuppycake

I have come to the conclusion that its not possible to not find Harry styles attractive. LooK AT that beautiful came! the eyes and dimples and smile. omg im dead



major harry feels after today ok

To Do:

Do to all the excitement, (ex. Cyr saying "i love you so much!!! to me, Deefizzy's brother following me on twitter, the airline fight pictures, the interview, larry feels, a show for the first time in weeks, a new janoskians video, and the nick wanna be punked thing) I was unable to do the stuff I had planned so.



  • organize my pictures, esp. my gif folders, create a folder for janoskians
  • finish outline for my new story
  • finish my july 23, 2012 artwork
  • check to see if all my stories updated
  • update my fanfictions -maybe-
  • update fanfiction list
  • sync my ipod

Zayn Malik is the most gorgeous person on earth



that is all.

My Obsessions.

One Direction
    Harry Styles
    Zayn Malik
    Niall Horan
    Liam Payne
    Niall Horan
Janoskians
    Luke Brooks
    Jai Brooks
    Beau Brooks
    James Yammouni
    Skip (Daniel Sahyounie)
My Chemical Romance
     Gerard Way
     Mikey Way
     Ray Toro
     Frank Iero
All Time Low
     Alex Gaskarth
     Jack Barakat
     Rian Dawson
     Zack Merrick
Damon Fizzy
Ed Sheeran
Vincent Cyr


Not gonna lie though, 1D is my biggest obsession, followed by Damon Fizzy, followed by Janoskians, then Cyr, then Ed, and then MCR, and then ATL.


Also, it's now my goal in life to get Deefizzy noticed by Ed c:

What About Tonight

Chances are, if you're not Australian you have never heard of them!


What About Tonight are going to be on the next series of X-Factor Australian! They are a boy band, and there going to be mentored by One Direction. I heard about them on Tumblr a few days ago. When I looked them up, I was expecting a wanna be One Direction, or something. But holy shit, these guys are good!



 Plus, they're all so freaking cute!! So happy to say that I'll be with them since the beginning, and I have high hopes for these guys! They. Are. Amazing. And attractive. 


I guess I can add them to my list of obsessions.

New One Direction Pictures!

So many new picture today, a new interview AND the prank on Nickelodeon.

New Janoskians Video!

One Direction get pranked

Oh my actual god.

I don't even know anything.

Harry. Oh my god. And Niall, was like, "I don't give a fuck". Oh My God.





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I've died of second hand embarrassment.

 

I can't even, man.

This is me while watching it:






7/19/12

Larry Stylinson to read list

Time.. I need to make some!!!

Josh! Get off of tumblr!

 (x)

Why?? He was probably stalking the Harry Styles tag omg

7/18/12

When people call me a fake Black Veil Brides

Ha fucking ha. 


So, because I don't have "scene hair" and wear all black, I'm not a real black veil brides fan?


Okay.


Just cause, you know, I liked them before the knives and pen's video was even out. And you know, cause they made one of the biggest impacts on my life.


Okay.

7/17/12

If 1D were girls..

Sometimes my best friend and I go to the mall and pick out things that One Direction would wear if they were girls.




I'm gonna make a larry stylinson playlist

because im bored

7/16/12

Monthly Top 25 on Itunes

Click here to see my top 25 most played from june, may, april and october
Here are my Top 25 most played


As of July 16, 2012



  1. . Moments- One Direction
  2. . Stand Up - One Direction
  3. Another World - One Direction
  4. You Need Me, I Don't Need You -Ed Sheeran
  5. The A Team  -Ed Sheeran
  6. Little Bird  -Ed Sheeran
  7. Grade 8  -Ed Sheeran
  8. Drunk  -Ed Sheeran
  9. Small Bump  -Ed Sheeran
  10. U.N.I  -Ed Sheeran
  11. I Should Have Kissed You - One Direction
  12. Na, Na, Na  -Ed Sheeran
  13. Wrong Way - Sublime
  14. The City  -Ed Sheeran
  15. One Thing - One Direction
  16. Gotta Be You - One Direction
  17. Torn- One Direction
  18. Forever Young
  19. Kiss Me  -Ed Sheeran
  20. Autumn Leaves  -Ed Sheeran
  21. Lego House  -Ed Sheeran
  22. Taken - One Direction
  23. This  -Ed Sheeran
  24. Gold Rush  -Ed Sheeran
  25. Wake Me Up  -Ed Sheeran

15/25- Ed Sheeran
9/25 One Direction
1/25 sublime


Uh, wow. Very surprising. But at the same time not. Very different from last month.. 


Note: For some reason, itunes won't count my listens of  Up All Night (album) except for Taken, so this isn't that accurate. 

Xkit > Missing E

Xkit took me forever to download and I just got it but I already like it more than missing e. 


Missing e use to be cool.. and the unfollower tracker stopped working a while ago so..

What would the kids at school think

Not like I care, but I'd love to see there reaction if they knew that I spend 20 hours a day doing the following:


Blogging about 5 homosexuals
Reading Fanfiction about 5 said homosexuals. 
Sometimes, in said fanfiction, someone will be 12 and someone will be 24. And they will fuck. Sometimes they will be brothers. And they will fuck.
Which is normal story for me..

7/15/12

Larry shippers vs Elounor shippers

Larry Shippers: Elounor shippers are 12 year old girls who want to believe that they have a chance with Harry and Louis

Eleanor Shippers: Larry Shippers are 12 year old girls that want Harry and Louis to be gay because they know they have no chance with either of them.

This should happen...

Okay, I have this dream that like, one day I'll just be at the mall or something and meet another Directioner. 


We'll exchange Tumblr's and Twitter's and follow each other and become best directioner friends. We'll spam the boys non stop and co write a fan fiction together.


Like I have directioner friends.. but not one's that spend every moment reading fanfiction and on tumblr.


My best friend is like.. really clean minded I guess, as in she has a dirty mind and stuff, but won't read smut or anything..

Snapbacks and Tattoos

Snapbacks and tattoos is written about Niall Horan and Zayn Malik, right?

Facts, Questions, and Oppinions (Larry Stylinson/ Elounor Rant)

This week's edition in Fifi rants about One Direction and Larry Stylinson:


1. Facts about Me, and my Larry-Elounor-ness
2. Why is Eleanor famous?
3. Harry Styles and "gay"
4. Louis gets offended when called gay
5. Phoebe (Lou's sister) says the family is getting upset by "Larry Stylinson"
   a. "Phoebe's" Larry Rant (Instagram)
   b. What a 8 year old really writes like
   c.  then she calls them homosexuals
6. Louis says Harry isn't single in unreleased interview
7. Harry: Boyfriend; Harry: Louis' Boyfriend; Liam: What?
8. Hannah Walker
9. Links
10. Tags


Shout out to: Eleanor Calder!! Happy 20th birthday!! <3


Warning Don't read if: You're homophobic. You hate Eleanor Calder. You worship Eleanor Calder. You are a very close minded shipper (of any ship)



WHY HAVEN'T I SEEN THIS BEFORE?! (Larry Stylinson)



This is an interview from Sweden, a bit old, from early 2012.


(5:48)


|Interviewer: How of you got girlfriends? Or boyfriends, I don't know.


|Liam: Me and Louis both got girl friends. We're the only-


|Harry: Boyfriend


|Liam: guys with girlfriends, and the rest of them are single


|Louis: And the rest of them all have boyfriends


|Interviewer: Ha ha ha alright-


|Harry: Louis' boyfriend


|Liam: What?


Listen really carefully at 6:01-6:02 or you'll completely miss "Louis' boyfriend"


But how the hell did I not watch this before?


Okay, so maybe I'm over analyzing this, but I don't know man.. Before today I've never heard of this interview from half a year mentioned, never seen an analysis or anything, and you know how Larry believer's are...


Found this interview via deludedlarry on tumblr. This blog is flawless! Look at her "evidence" tag. Just do it.



I love markers

I just really love markers.

And color pencils and water colors.

Not too into acrylics, but maybe that's because I'm too poor to by some.

Charcoals okay. Depends what brand but I made a really nice charcoal drawing a few days ago. Then I messed it up. But it was nice before I messed it up.

But nothing beats good old sketch pencils. 2B <3

Wreak This Journal

I finally got one!!

Can I marry it or...?

7/14/12

I just love her so much

Dedicating this post to one of my longest friends.


My first friend, and my best friend. Although we faded apart, and didn't talk for almost a year, we're really good friends again. Thanks to One Direction.


So, thank you one direction for saving a fourteen year long friendship.


She's amazing and the only true directioner I know, and one of the only people I trust with my tumblr, and I'm the only person that knows hers.


BUT, she needs to rethink life if she truly thinks Harry tops in Larry sex.

My mom think I'm weird

I'm very weird.


But she finds me really weird because I like big cities.

I've gotten really good at covers

Not to be conceited but I've gotten pretty good at making book covers.

Icarly/1D rant

I'll never understand why they had random people play keyboard, guitar and drums on the gayest episode of Icarly, when they had Sandy, Jon, Josh and Dan.

Speaking of, I saw a dude that looked just like Jon in San Fran today. I stalked him for a while. It wasn't him.

1D: A Year In The Making

omh (oh my harry cuz hes the hottest/my favzzz) i jzt saw id the making thing! The world permire! i bet all the other fans didn't even watch it yet! it was so cool i didn't even kno they started on Britin's got talent like grason chance!!! my fav part was wen harold was swimming w/ out a shirt!! 


Kidding.

But what the fuck? They didn't say the harry shit thing :/ or the no pants Liam.

Yet, they still showed skinny dipping Harry.

Okay Nick, okay.

Uh, and who was that the world premiere when it actually came out last year?

7/11/12

The Bet (Larry Stylinson)

 When Louis bets Zayn that he can make anyone fall in love with him in under a month, he doesn’t expect Zayn to pick loner Harry Styles as the challenge. Larry Stylinson AU


Amazing! http://0pen-at-the-close.tumblr.com/post/24013464482/the-bet-masterpost

I hope I forget about this blog..

Honestly, this blog is my diary and has been for the last several years. I write personal stuff here, and I've been considering putting this blog on private. But unless someone is looking for this blog they won't find it. I did give out the URL to a few people when I first made it, three years ago, but I doubt they remember.


Anyway, as I was saying, I hope I forget about this blog one day. Like I'm thirty years old and I find this blog, re-read all my post.


Maybe in 15 years, when I'm thirty I'll really enjoy knowing that on July 11, 2012 at 11:35am I was listening to Trapt and reading One Direction fanfiction.


Because I really can't wait to reread all this stuff I'm writing.


I've had this blog longer than any of my other blogs. My tumblr, my one direction tumblr, and my deefizzy/cyr tumblr, and this is the only one I actually write in, you know?


Its like under my bed there is a green binder that's like 4 years old, i haven't looked at it in a year, but I'm going to. It has all my old stories, back when I wrote on paper.


Idk man it weird. im weird.

Live Blogging My Night *larry fanfiction and music

here is three hours of my life blogged. this is my life. music, fanfiction, writing, and larry stylinson



"Mind Games - Larry Stylinson

Harry Styles was just a normal teenage boy, a normal teenage boy who had a happy life and was quite content to live it the way nature had intended: completely normally, with no weird happenings or crazy adventures. Yet some things, it would seem, are destined to be, and it would appear that Harry’s fate was to be abducted by insane strangers intent on experimenting on him, and their four other hand-picked victims. Harry sometimes feels so alone, even when his best friends are only a few metres away - and he can’t seem to help but be afraid, because there are so very few things left in his life for him to control…"


11:00
reading: Mind Games -chapter 3-
listening: stand up- trapt 



11:10


reading: Mind Games -chapter 4-
listening: influence- trapt you always feel so alone, the real you is never shown/so much pressure to fit in/how do you know when you've gone to far to get high again


11:22


reading: Mind Games -chapter 6-
listening: hurt- get scared from all the years that went by..


11:34


writing: Freefall -total words: 498
listening: I'm not a vampire- falling in reverse 


11:45

writing: freefall- 614
listening: scream- get scared at the edge of us/ I'm holding on/I've lost your trust/but I'm still trying


11:57


writing: freefall- 882
listening: somebody told me- the killers


12:06


reading: mind games- chapter 8
listening: headfirst for halos- my chemical romance 


12:20


reading: mind games - chapter 13
listening: my black dahilia- hollywood undead i use to be love stuck/ now im just fucked up/ pull up my sleve and see the patteren of my cuts


12:30


reading: mind games- chapter 15
listening: face down- the red jumpsuit apparatus


12:44
fangirling: Cyr just followed my dyr blog, we passed 100 followers and cyr replied to me on youtube. ALL IN ONE NIGHT WTF WHY IS LIFE SO MAZING


12:56
reading: mind games chapter 21
listening: my way home is through you- my chemical romance


1:13
reading: just finished mind games asdfghjkl; its perf
listening: enchanted- my chemical romance


1:26
listening: desert song- my chemical romance


At Different Ends by Raven (Passoword needed)
Harry Styles has been reappearing in Louis Tomlinson’s dreams in a haunting, and almost cruel way. “But why?” Louis asks himself, “He’s been dead for three months.” 


1:31
reading: At Different Ends -chapter 1
listening: the natives- hollywood undead


Elephant by abigail There’s an elephant in the room. And its name is Harry Styles.


1:40
reading: elephant -Louis' Tomlinson's story He walked out of the bathroom to see the boys standing there watching him…tears streaming down their faces. “He died two weeks ago, Louis,” Liam told. “He never made it out if the hospital,”
listening: friends and alibis- escape the fate 


1:48
reading: elephant- Niall Horan's story holy fuck. I found it. I've spent the last week searching for a fic where Niall drank bleach after harry died. omg. 
listening: To be loved- papa roach i got a jet black heart, its all fucked up and its falling apart


ok its only 1:54 but im not tired so I'm debating weather having an all nighter or going to sleep now in case something the boys do is important...

1:58
twitter. 1Dneews.


2:04 I'm going to sleep now night night






7/10/12

All Nighter

Alright, currently being ignored by friends (nothing new), why, I do not know.


But fuck them. Cyr replied to me tonight, I'm listening to get scared, and have a bunch of fics to read, and I'm going to live blog my first fic! I've never lived blog so...

Summer Music: 2011 vs 2012

Main bands listened to summer of 2011:


Papa Roach
Breaking Benjamin
Trapt
Falling In Reverse
Get Scared
Hollywood Undead
All Time Low
Nirvana
Alesana
Bring Me The Horizon
Asking Alexandria




Main bands/artist I listen to this summer (2012):


one direction
ed sheeran




2 YEARS FOR LOU

*Queue the tears*

Ladies, and fangirls, today (wait it might me yesterday in the UK) two years ago, Louis William Tomlinson.



And yes, I'm really crying. But I cry over everything. MY BABY. Lol, I never rewatch any of the auditions because I burst into tears.




Lou's cover of Look After You, from when he was 16 :')

Today also marks the two year mark for the first time Louis and Harry meet <3

Ah, having feels from late 2011 when Louis was my favorite...

Now, I'm reading Hannah's tweets from last year...




BAD IDEA ELEANOR

Don't wear a ring on your ring figure! Yay! More rumors...

Unless they aren't rumors..



Ugh, why is she so fucking pretty?

Ugh, why am I started to doubt Larry Stylinson..

Fo all da Elounor picz go hea: Hereee

7/9/12

Damon Fizzy.

Damon, Damon, Damon.

My love for this boy is infinite.

I found Damon on Youtube, in December, I subscribed to a cousin of a friend on Youtube, and this cousin of a friend commented on one of Damon video's (I wish I could remember which video, but I can't) says that he was his biggest inspiration, and I decided to check him out.

This kid was hilarious. It was obvious he was just bring himself, and that's the first thing I loved about him


That night, I had an all nighter with my laptop and a boy named deefizzy.

And just like so many others, Damon has saved my life so many times, and I look up to him in so many way.

I honestly can't even describe him in words.

I have anxiety (Like Damon) so I freak out about the smallest things and my mind goes crazy. I get upset easily, and cry over everything. I do things that I'll regret, I do things that make me hate myself.

So, its 11:33 pm, I'm upset over something that is probably just my imagination, but I'm going to rewatch  some deefizzy videos.

So, thank you Damon.

Every 1D Fanfic I've Read (mostly larry)

254 fics
 Fanfictions that I have read.
about 30 to read

* = Sequel to above

bold = favorite
(het) = Heterosexual, ex. Harry/OFC. There's like 3..


This is a list of most of the the fanfics I've read. Prompts and anything from the kinkmeme not included. This is only the stuff I had saved/bookmarked/kept in a list. A lot of these links are months old, meaning authors changed there URL, a lot have deleted too.  There's oneshots, WIP, and complete. I'm going to try to add every fic I read from now on, onto this list.


Several of these stories are F Locked, Password Blogs, or you have to join a community.


Ratings: Everything.


Warnings: Self-harm, suicide, drugs, prostitution, underage sex.. Pretty much everything.. except incest. opps can't say that anymore


Parings: 90% Larry Stylinson (70% w/ side of Niam) Also: Narry, Lirry, Zarry, Zouis, Niam, Ziam, Ziall. And Payzer. Nick Grimshaw and Ed Sheeran are occasionally on this list.


Websites: 80% Tumblr. Also:  LiveJournal, Wattpad, and Archive of our own 


Tip: try hitting  crtl + F. Search bar should appear in the top right corner, there you can search for a specific pairing.



Last Updated: 9/15/12 (Sept. 15, 2012)

Happy Birthday to Josh Devine!

Happy Birthday to the amazing, hot, talented drummer of One Direction, Josh Devine!!!

7/7/12

THEY PLAYED DESTROYA AT HOT TOPIC

PRETTY RAD

Gauges: Why do I not understand logic?

So, last year when I first got gauges (Tapers) I started with 14G and it hurt like a bitch.


I got rid of them in like.. February? So, I had then for 7 months? 


Well, today I put 12G when my holes were completely closed pretty much.


Why am I so smart?


I question is now: Spider bites or wait two years for a tattoo.. or both.. or belly button.. or nose...

Damon finds my dyr blog hilarious

And Cyr wonders when its gonna end.

Am I the only person that checks the weather before they get dressed?

Probably.

7/6/12

70+ Pictures of Harry STyles

Because he is beautiful

Cyr knows about my Dyr blog

Oh dyr,

Haha, my co-owner tweeted him last night..

1st Time My Crush Talked To Me On FB


And, he said that One Direction sucks..


But he said it in a really nice way...


Lol, it took me so long to get the courage to add him, and a month later, out of everything I've ever posted he replys to his: OMG!!!! NICKOLODEAN YOU ARE NOT ALOUD TO PLAY ONE DIRECTION: A YEAR IN THE MAKING! THEY GO SKINNY DIPPING!!


He replied to that of all things.


"That band sucks" the teenage boy typed not knowing that the girl on the other side of the conversation was madly in love with that him, as well as that band.


I've tried playing it cool, but when I'm looking at you, I can't ever be brave, cause you make my heart race.


Yeah, that describes my life. I had to call my best friend because I had no clue what to reply..

"Dyr" Deefizzy and Cyr blog!

I will shamelessly promote my Dyr blog: HERE 


Follow it!!!


More shameless promotion: 


My Personal Blog


Co-owner of the Dyr Blog (She follows back)


My 1D Blog


So, follow Dry-is-my-otp, and you will get a follow back from either infection-of-direction or just-through-my-eyes!!

7/5/12

My Fic Rec Keeps Getting Longer..

I use to have a really long fic rec on here and tons of list, but now I just bookmark things like this:


So, its Fanfics > Complete, OneShots, In Progress, To Read


Much more organized. So, I don't update all the list on this blog anymore, but I usually tag what I'm reading under "Fic Rec" (or least I'm going to start to).


But yeah, my main fic rec/favorites are here, on my tumblr :)


 There's 44 under my In Progress bookmark
34 under oneshots
23 under complete
and to read in currently empty..


Not to meant my 1,500 + "likes" on tumblr which are almost all liked fics...


In other words my life revolves around Larry Stylinson fanfics..

Harry you hipster..

Harry Styles is such a hipster.


That is all.

THEY SELL ONE DIRECTION STUFF AT HOT TOPIC NOW

WHAT IS LIFE????


OH MY GOD. MUST GO TO HOT TOPIC. WAIT I DON'T HAVE MONEY. FUCK MY LIFE. 

Dear 1D, Where am I suppose to get all this money from?

It's July and the 2013 Calender is already for preorder.


Books, CDs, DVDs, posters, calenders, dolls, shirts, WHY IS THERE SO MUCH FREAKING MERCH?! 


A hot water bottle? Who the hell would buy that?


30 $ for a T-Shirt? 


Look at all the stuff they sell? Plus all the new stuff that's coming out.


One Direction Management, you know that a majority of the fans are 20-14? Meaning they don't have jobs? And if they do, they probably have more important things to spend it on?


Yet, it doesn't stop us from being all this shit.


I for one buy a magazine featuring 1D weekly..


If you bought 1D sillybands, you need to rethink your life.


AND THIS IS WHY ETSY, EBAY AND AMAZON WERE INVENTED. 

I'm going to make a playlist for this blog..

And it's going to be a weird playlist because it will be One Direction, Ed Sheeran, Cher Lloyd, Get Scared, Alesana, Sublime, Nirvana, The Ramones, Queen, The Killers, System Of A Down, My Chemical Romance, Papa Roach, Falling in Reverse and Trapt...

7/3/12

Emotion One Direction Blogging (Last Concert, Larry, Going Home)

Shit. I've cried way to much over these boys.


Way to fucking much.


I'll start by saying, HARRY'S "HI" TATTOO IN LOUIS TOMLINSON HAND WRITING IS REAL. 


How cute. Man, those boyfriends are just too fucking cute. 


Interview





I will not talk about the mean things that people were saying about him on tumblr today.


YESTERDAY WAS THE LAST UP ALL NIGHT CONCERT.


Let's see. My best friend and I sat in front of three computers trying to get a twitcast to work, it was crazy, our neighbors think we are crazy, and TWIT CAST DIDN'T FUCKING WORK.


But it's okay because we watched it on Youtube. And cried.


Funny Story: So we went to go see the movie Ted (Hilarious, just saying) then Niall tweeted about the tour being over.. And I started fucking crying. Again. During that movie, of all movies. And  I continently  had a magazine with a shirtless Harry so I survived until I got home.


Then my best friend and I cried some more (a lot more) we watched the tour dvd twice and played the album on repeat all night... 

Remember when all the U.S fans had it illegally downloaded because it wasn't out here?


Man. 6 months tour. I can't believe it. 


They've gone so, so far in six months, its crazy. I feel like a proud mom. My babies. I just can't believe everything they have accomplished in six months. I feel likes its a dream, and the boys are still my little secret. I just can't believe it. Less than two years...


They finished there first headlining tour. So many cities, so many countries. A Cd, book and Dvd released in the US, when a year ago Liam was saying how they wanted to get big here.


News flash, they are without a doubt the most popular boyband in the world.


They aren't my little secret any more.


And I never got to see there first headlining tour..


Not to seem, but a girl who has been a fan since Icarly went to the concert. My friend has been a fan since the beginning, the very beginning (and how many US fans have been there since the first live show?) but hasn't gone to a concert because she can't afford it.


But seriously. I am so fucking proud. I can't explain it in words.





My babies are home!!! So happy!! Sure the time difference with be hard, but oh well.

London Directioners: I will need daily pictures in HQ plz.

But don't camp outside their house.

They haven't been home (for more a long period of time) in six months guys. They're tired and miss their families and friends. Respect them guys.

Harry reached 5 million followers.

That is all for now..

Probably going to listen to 1D and cry some more