This Year Went By So Fast

I swear it was last week that I was stressing out about finals! That was in May!

These last few months have gone by so fast! How is tomorrow November?!

Halloween!

100% chance of rain. Nice.

I'm going to be a rave kid, like with a fluffy animal hat, tons of braclets and slutty shirt ect, and my best friend is a hipster...

I'm going trick or treating, I really don't care how old I am. I'm going with eleven people.. but ya know, creepy people out their its better to have a big group

Wow today was actually a good day

Well, most of it was anyway. I've been depressed (more so than usual) and anti-social (more so than usual) so it was nice to hang out with people besides my friends (since, you know, they tend not to include me in their plans anyway).

So, first I had a nice Skins (UK of course) marathon last night/ this morning. I like Skins. A Lot. (I like the plots and I would like to fuck all the girls from the 2nd generation). And even though I seen every episode at least twenty times it never gets old.

Then, I went to the bookstore, there is no book store in my town, so my trips to the bookstore is rare. I got a book I've wanted to read for over a year (The Secret Year) and I got the Alternative Press November issue (the one with all of them on the cover, because they all looked hot). To my surprise it was a drummer's special, I'm a drummer and I think drummers are under appreciated. And it had an interview with Gerard Way (my baby). I rarely buy Alt Press because I'm poor, only when one of my favorites are on the cover.

Then, I went shopping at the mall with my little cousins, who are like my sister. I love them, a lot. Even though they are fans of the Wanted and think One Direction is the stupidest band ever.

There was a bunch of hot guys today (yay!) and we all got leather jackets at Tilly's (because we're cool). Tilly's is my favorite store (besides Forever 21 and Hot Topic).

That's the one I bought and it looks fucking perfect on me, even though it's oddly and x-large which is weird because I'm not an x-large. All the stuff I own from Tilly's (most of which are the same brand) are small or medium, but whatever. Although, they should have xx-large stuff, because my cousin was going to buy this jacket first but x-large was the biggest size and its tiny. But whatever.

Also, every time I go to Tilly's, I see this bag



and I want it but I never buy it...

Also, my dad told me were going to disneyland in January and Lake Tahoe in March (even though we go ti Lake Tahoe yearly, I love it there)

Tv Shows and Movies I Like

This is a short list.

I'm too picky with acting and nothing interests me, and I just like reading more. So, this is the never growing list..

Tv Shows:
American Horror Story
Skins (UK)
Teen Wolf
Degrassi
Full House
90210 (To an extent..)
Pretty Little Liars (Also to an extent)
Arthur (Yeah, the show about a talking aardvark)

I like the food network channel too.

Movies:
Dazed and Confused
Perks of Being A Wallflower
Breakfast Club
The Art of Getting By

I thinks that's basically it? My cousin says to watch the Walking Dead?

My Dream in Life

My dream in life is basically that one day, I'm like, 20 and going to college in San Francisco. At the local bookstore that I visit daily, a cute guy works. I go several time before we talk. Soon, every time I come, which is pretty often, we talk about famous literature and quotes and everything from deep, meaningful "What's my purpose of life?" questions to "What's for lunch?". And we would have similar taste in music and one day our favorite band would come and we would go and fall in love and one days we would have cute little babies that are raised in a great family and from a young age we teach them that love is love, and you can love who ever you want, and we wouldn't really be a religious family but if our child wanted, they could go to church. (Then I would send them to a boarding school in London where they would become best friends with Darcy Styles-Tomlinson. "hey, mom can I stay at Darcy's for the weekend?" "Sure but I need to talk to her parents first" "Harry and Louis? They're cool with it mom" "Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson? From One Direction?" "Yup")

(Or I can marry Vic Fuentes)

Conventional Weapons..

Uh, I don't if they got leaked or whatever, but the first two song, Boy Division and Tomorrows Money are on Youtube.

I don't words to describe this. Its been two years. I started crying before I even

Things I Like / Things I hate

I don't like many things.. but here's some:

• the screams you hear right before band your at a concert of start. The happiness, the adrenaline. Everyone loves the same thing you do. Everyone wants to hear the band play. Everyone had all the lyrics memorized and hoping for there favorite song to be played.
• the moment when your iPod plays the exact song you wanted to listen too.
• when you can go to sleep in peace on a firday or saturday knowing you don't have to go to school next day, you don't have to deal with assholes or bratty queen's. you don't have to sit though hours of classes not learning a thing.
• when you haven't looked at your phone in days and see you have texts. people actually want to talk to you. people actually care.
• collar bones. i just really, really like collar bones. and wrist. bones in general. they are beautiful.
• scars. every scar has a story- happy or sad. they all have a story, they all have a meaning.
• when you pick up a random book and its good.
• when you prove someone wrong. anything, someone thinks you can't go something and you do. better yet, you do it well.
• words.
• poems.
• listening to a song you haven't heard in a long time- all the memories come flooding back
• expecting a pair of jeans not to fit- they do
• lyrics, melody, music. 
• rain
• being in love
• the pain of piercing

things i hate

• not being able to go to sleep because everything is stressing you out.
• knowing you won't ever be able to see a certain band one day because they're dead or broken up
• when all your friends hang out but don't even bother to include you
• doctors appointments
• finding out terrible news on a good day
• expecting a number on the scale- and your weight is higher
• someone your not friends with because you just stopped talking- you didn't fight, just grew apart
• when your best friend is sad
• being in class.. needing a partner.. not knowing anyone in that class
• studying for a test for days and failing
• cliffhangers 
• open endings
• falling in love
• falling out of love

I am very much into hardcore music right now

Hardcore, emocore, screamo, whatever the fuck its called.

It's odd because I sent the end of 2011 and the first seven or eight months of 2012 obsessed with One Direction, Cher Lloyd, and all the people similar, then I had a brief Coldplay, The Fray, The Script and bands like that, then in September maybe I started listening to the music I had always listened to, such as, Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, Bring The Horizon, All Time Low, pierce The Veil with a touch of stuff like The Ramones, Nirvana and Sublime

In Which Harry Styles Is Beautiful

god dammit. harry fucking styles is always so beautiful but i literally cannot handle this picture of him. like just stop it. 

Guys I find attractive! Gif edition (1/?)

None of these gifs are mine.

this is part one of ? of guys i find really fucking hot.

warning: all these guys are really fucking hot.

|Alex Arnold| Rich Hardbeck from Skins (Series 5 & 6) |

I NEED more shows from him.









|Kellin Quinn| Sleeping With Sirens|









|Harry Styles| One Direction |

hi im harreh styles and im literally the most beautiful person on earth

sometimes i think "wow this guy is hot" them i remember that harry styles is hotter

even if you hate one direction, you have to admit harry styles is one attractive fucker









|Dylan O'Brian| Stiles in Teen Wolf |










stay tuned for part two + girls I find attrative

Books I've Read in 2012 (so far)/To Read

So, in January, I had this plan to read 100 books this year- that was before I became obsessed with Larry Stylinson (One Direction) Fanficiton.

Most likely, I won't reach this goal. Or half this goal. But either way, these are the books I've read so far.

At the end of the year I will review my favorites!

1. The Fault In Our Stars - John Green
2. Perks of being a Wallflower- Stephen Chbosky (re-read)
3. Dare To Dream- One Direction
4. City of Lost Souls - Cassanda Clare
5. Pretend You Love Me- Julie Anne Peters 
6. Wake- Lisa Mcmann (re-read)
7. Fade - Lisa McMann (re-read)
8. Gone - Lisa McMann (re-read)
9. Freefall- Mindi Scott
10. The Savage Grace by Bree Despain
11. Split by Swati Avasthi
12. Dead To You - Lisa McMann
13. Try Not to breathe- Jennifer Hubbard
14. Don't Forget To Breathe- By Holly Cupala
15. Romeo and Juliet by William Shaksphere.
16. Beautiful Disaster by Jamie McGiuire
17. The Boyfriend Thief- Shana Norris
18. The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight- Jennifer E. Smith
19. Saving June- Hannah Harrington
20. Five Flavors of Dumb- Antony John
21. Party- Tom Leveen
22. The Future of Us- Jay Asher & Carolyn Mackler
23. Dash and Lily's Book Of Dares- Rachel Cohn and David Levithan.
24. Break- Hannah Moskowitz (re-read)
25. Invincible Summer (re-read)
26. As Dead as It Gets- Katie Alender
27. The Secret Year- Jennifer Hubbard
28. My Beating Teenage Heart-  CK Kelly Martin
29. I Know Its Over- CK Kelly Martin 
30. Will Grayson Will Grayson- John Green and David Levithan

To Read:

Bittersweet- Sarah Ockler

First Comes Love-  Katie Kacvinsky

What A Boy Wants- Nyrae Dawn 

Clean- Amy Reed

The Piper's Son-  Melina Marchetta

books of 2012: book 20

The Fault in our stars - john green

words can't describe y love for this book

100 books in 2012: book 19

Perks of being a Wallflower- Stephen Chbosky

*Re-read

The first time I read this book, I was eleven.

This is one of my favorite books of all time, and this time around, it made a lot more sense.

To Do List:

To Do List for the next three days:

• Skins (UK) Marathon
• American Horror Story (season 1) Marathon
• Teen Wolf (Season 1 & 2) Marathon
• Catch up on Pretty Little Liars
• Catch up on 90210
• Do all my missing math work
• Bio study guide
• Study for bio test (monday)
• Bio worksheets
• Finish my Larry Stylinson Halloween fanfiction
• Football Game on Friday (?)

Biology..

There are many, and I mean a lot, of things and people I hate in life. Everything from tomatoes to politics.

But you know what I really hate?

Biology.

I should do homework..

but the internet is just so much more fun..

Favorite 1D One Shots

I swear I would have left the One Direction fandom already if it wasn't for the fan fiction.

 I'm organizing my bookmarks so, this is favorite ff's at the moment. i make a new list like, weekly so.

mulit paring, all slash, lots of sites

read these or die unhappy

I wonder what my family would think

I would what my too religious, too judgmental family would think of the fact I enjoy my Sunday afternoon reading gay incest. Whoops is that against the bible?

a story (or three) I want to write

The first story is about a boy and a girl as most stories are. The boy is really reckless and free, and an artist and plays the piano. He does drugs (like ecstasy maybe, something besides weed) and hangs out with the "bad" kids and has issues at home. The girl is like, really perfect. She's really religious ( Catholic or Christian probably). She's really smart and tries really hard in everything and probably has an older sister that she's trying to live up to.

idea 1: Then, the girl has cancer (or something else) and has a certain amount of time to live, she's okay with that because she really doesn't have anyone she really loves, her friends are too fake, and her boyfriend broke up with her, but then she meet the guy, and he kind of changes everything she's ever thought she knew.

idea 2: The girls parent or sibling (or friend) dies and she starts losing her faith in god and starts shutting down and then the guy comes into her life, the exact kind of guy she always tried to avoid, especially him because he's always into trouble.

idea 3: The girl is under a lot of pressure (maybe she gets asked to model? school president?) Her best friend and sister are both tiny, and even though she is too, she starts developing an eating disorder. Maybe her sister, who is really super religious, finds out and instead of comforting her, she gets mad, because its not her body, its gods body, its sacred. She ends up joining art (or band) for some reason, maybe she needs her art credits because so far she's only been in highly academic classes. There she meets the guy. She isn't the biggest fan of time at first, because she's highly judgmental at first, and he has piercings and listens to punk music and is an artist and in a band. Maybe she cuts herself and maybe he finds out. Something like that. He teachers her to live, to not care what other think. And that maybe, what's on the outside doesn't really matter. Maybe he should practice what he preaches though.

probs gonna go with the third idea.

Based on my music taste

based on my music taste, I should probably a scene kid or a washed up stoner.

Dazed and Confused at the movies..

I'm excited! :D

My friend's grandparents own a movie theater (the only one..) in town and for my friends birthday next week they're going to play Dazed and Confused and its only going to be my friends and lol this is gonna be crazy.

Favorite songs at the moment

Drella- Pierce The Veil

A Trophy Father's Trophy Son- Sleeping with Sirens (*sobs*)

A Match Into Water- Pierce The Veil

Disasterology- Pierce The Veil

Scene One: James Dean and Audrey Hepburn- Sleeping With Sirens

Hell Above- Pierce The Veil

If You Can't Hang- Sleeping With Sirens

If I'm James Dean, Then You're Audrey Hepburn- Sleeping With Sirens

Scene Two: Rodger Rabbit- Sleeping with Sirens

Yeah Boy and Doll Face- Pierce The Veil

King For A Day- Pierce The Veil

Fast Times at Claremont High- Pierce The Veil

Who Are We Now- Sleeping with Sirens

Stay Away From My Friends- Pierce The Veil

Do It Now Remember It Later- Sleeping With Sirens

Bulletproof Love- Pierce The Veil

First Punch- Pierce The Veil