9/30/12
9/29/12
Awkward moment when I don't like "Set This World on Fire" or "Live While We're Young"
So, I was patiently waiting for One's Direction's "Live While We're Young" and The Janoskians' "Set This World On Fire" since forever.
Lol. I don't like either of them.
Pretty funny considering how much I love both..
Yeah, I'm over pop/mainstream music.
Lol. I don't like either of them.
Pretty funny considering how much I love both..
Yeah, I'm over pop/mainstream music.
Crying because I can't go to see Sleeping With Sirens and Pierce the Veil
*sobs*
I can't find a ride :/ I HATE LIFE
I can't find a ride :/ I HATE LIFE
9/25/12
full friendship circle
When I was little my best friend was this girl, L.
Our mom's were next door neighbors and best friends, so by default we were best friends, everyone thought we were sisters.
In 6th grade, first year of middle school, we just stopped talking. We didn't have a fight or anything, we just grew apart.
Now, we're good friends again, we're the only tumblr people at our school (that we know of) and we love all the same stuff, and i don't know, it feels right/
Our mom's were next door neighbors and best friends, so by default we were best friends, everyone thought we were sisters.
In 6th grade, first year of middle school, we just stopped talking. We didn't have a fight or anything, we just grew apart.
Now, we're good friends again, we're the only tumblr people at our school (that we know of) and we love all the same stuff, and i don't know, it feels right/
I tend to need these so...
Sometimes, I random what happened on a certain day. Like on Sept. 8, 2011 I wrote an odd message on my friends dog's facebook, why?
So for future reference, today, September 25 is a Tuesday and I have a lot of homework I have to do.
I made plans to go to the mall tomorrow and L.B and Lex weren't at school today. Ms White and Ms Morgan also weren't here. We're making pancakes in Culinary tomorrow and I have to finish the mermaid thing.
So for future reference, today, September 25 is a Tuesday and I have a lot of homework I have to do.
I made plans to go to the mall tomorrow and L.B and Lex weren't at school today. Ms White and Ms Morgan also weren't here. We're making pancakes in Culinary tomorrow and I have to finish the mermaid thing.
No such thing as love..
Once long, long ago (Okay like two years ago), I was a very negative person that truly thought that love didn't exist and everything was about sex.
Things change, man.
The worst thing in life is probably falling out of love.
Or maybe getting bored.
Like when I'm in like (not love..) I believe in love. Then after I'm like "Woah. Love isn't really I just want to fuck them,"
So I like alternate, like right now, I don't have a crush. No one I like, no one that I want to have a relationship with, there's just a list of guys I really want to fuck.
In a few months, I'll be like "omg im in luv omg lets get married"
Life, man, life. Its complicated
Things change, man.
The worst thing in life is probably falling out of love.
Or maybe getting bored.
Like when I'm in like (not love..) I believe in love. Then after I'm like "Woah. Love isn't really I just want to fuck them,"
So I like alternate, like right now, I don't have a crush. No one I like, no one that I want to have a relationship with, there's just a list of guys I really want to fuck.
In a few months, I'll be like "omg im in luv omg lets get married"
Life, man, life. Its complicated
Thing My Parents Hate
Or more accurately, thing my parents hate about me. Or maybe the things I hate about myself.
- I have shitty grades
- I want to move to San Francisco
- I like "stoner" and "goth" music
- I "try to be a vampire"
- I enjoy piercings and tattoos
- I have to many guy friends
- I don't have a boyfriend
- I don't go to parties
- I hate everyone
- I'm fat
- I'm not friendly
- I'm in a shitty punk band
- I want to be an artist
- I skateboard
- I'm not girly and perfect
- BECAUSE IM A SLUT AND I WANT TO FUCK EVERYTHING WITH A PENIS
- AND IDK GIRLS ARE KIND OF ATTRACTIVE BUT I DON'T ACTUALLY LIKE THEM?
- AND DRUGS ARE FASCINATING
- SCARS ARE NICE AND WRIST ARE NICE
- AND ALCOHOL COMES IN HANDY
Wait what
9/23/12
Live While We're Young- One Direction
So, basically, for the last year I have gone months listening to nothing but One Direction.
I've been DYING for more music.
Then, last month I randomly got over them.
I hadn't listened to 1D in a which, and when I listened to LWWY I didn't even like it lol.
I've been DYING for more music.
Then, last month I randomly got over them.
I hadn't listened to 1D in a which, and when I listened to LWWY I didn't even like it lol.
9/22/12
HE'S SO BEAUTIFUL
So.
This guy, at my school, literally is the hottest guy I have ever laid my eyes on.
He's a Kellin Quinn on my scale.
Kellin Quinn is the top of my scale.
I'm not even kidding. He's so hot. If I was to describe my perfect guy, this would be him.
He has huge plus, not sure what size, but pretty big, he also has the septum and Medusa piercing.
And asfghjkl his eyes are so green and gosh he is just so hot.
This guy, at my school, literally is the hottest guy I have ever laid my eyes on.
He's a Kellin Quinn on my scale.
Kellin Quinn is the top of my scale.
I'm not even kidding. He's so hot. If I was to describe my perfect guy, this would be him.
He has huge plus, not sure what size, but pretty big, he also has the septum and Medusa piercing.
And asfghjkl his eyes are so green and gosh he is just so hot.
Update on the thing referred to as my life
1.
God.
I don't see you for a month and you get arrested and drop out of school.
Okay.
Have an enjoyable life. I'm moving on.
2.
Haven't cut in four days.
Me and my two best friends have matching homemade friendship bracelets.
As long as that's on my wrist, I won't cut.
3.
I'm surprised I've never mentioned him before.
But the hottest guy on earth goes to my school.
He is the definition of perfection.
He's so fucking hot.
And he's an artist.
He owes like seven pairs of Ray Bans.
And he has huge plugs.
His septum pierced.
The face of an angel.
Amazing taste in music.
I swear on my life he will be a tattoo artist on day.
He is literally the hottest thing I've ever seen.
4.
The guy that sits next to be in English is really intriguing.
He's a stoner.
But I don't know.
He's on of those people, that pay attention to the smallest things
He explained the perfect murder to me
He kind of scares me to be honest
He's really smart.
God.
I don't see you for a month and you get arrested and drop out of school.
Okay.
Have an enjoyable life. I'm moving on.
2.
Haven't cut in four days.
Me and my two best friends have matching homemade friendship bracelets.
As long as that's on my wrist, I won't cut.
3.
I'm surprised I've never mentioned him before.
But the hottest guy on earth goes to my school.
He is the definition of perfection.
He's so fucking hot.
And he's an artist.
He owes like seven pairs of Ray Bans.
And he has huge plugs.
His septum pierced.
The face of an angel.
Amazing taste in music.
I swear on my life he will be a tattoo artist on day.
He is literally the hottest thing I've ever seen.
4.
The guy that sits next to be in English is really intriguing.
He's a stoner.
But I don't know.
He's on of those people, that pay attention to the smallest things
He explained the perfect murder to me
He kind of scares me to be honest
He's really smart.
9/18/12
I need a distraction.
I really need a distraction right now.
I need something to read or watch.
Right now.
I need something to read or watch.
Right now.
Nice Messages on Tumblr make my day :D
Seriously.
I ignore hate, it doesn't hurt me or anything you know? It's kind of irrelevant to me, sending on Anonymous is a pathetic move. I've never gotten hate off anon before.
But anyway, nice messages, anon or not, totally make my day!
I ignore hate, it doesn't hurt me or anything you know? It's kind of irrelevant to me, sending on Anonymous is a pathetic move. I've never gotten hate off anon before.
But anyway, nice messages, anon or not, totally make my day!
Janoskians single, "Set This World On Fire"
I didn't get past the first thirty seconds.
Background, I've been a Janoskians fan for a few months, maybe half a year, and I had been anticipating there single since it was rumored.
Now, its not bad.
Just not my taste. Ha.
Background, I've been a Janoskians fan for a few months, maybe half a year, and I had been anticipating there single since it was rumored.
Now, its not bad.
Just not my taste. Ha.
9/17/12
Somewhere in Neverland
How dare Alex Gaskarth write a song about Peter Pan?!?!
That. Is. Not Acceptable.
*cries*
I'm obsessed with Peter Pan and I want to have a quote tattooed and CRIES.
All Time Low is like my favorite band. Peter Pan is my obsession.
I'm reading Peter and Wendy AGAIN right now.
This isn't okay.
I must cry to my mom about this.
That. Is. Not Acceptable.
*cries*
I'm obsessed with Peter Pan and I want to have a quote tattooed and CRIES.
All Time Low is like my favorite band. Peter Pan is my obsession.
I'm reading Peter and Wendy AGAIN right now.
This isn't okay.
I must cry to my mom about this.
One Direction Fandom Rant
Once upon a time, the One Direction fandom was fun, enjoyable, and a great place to make friends.
I know, hard to believe.
Okay, I'm not blaming this on anyone really, but yeah, to be honest in the time before Eleanor came into the picture, everything was way, way different.
A lot of fans, like at least half or more haven't been part of the fandom for more than six months, si they won't know, but yeah. IT WASN'T ALWAYS FULL OF SHIT.
There was a time when "Larry or you aren't a real fan"
When I first join the fandom, long ago (okay not that long ago, like this time last year) I felt like I had to lie about when I became a fan ("Since X-Factor), and then later on I felt like I had to like Eleanor, Caroline or who ever the boys were with.
The One Direction fandom is stupid.
Real fan: someone that would support the boys no matter what, someone that would never send hate to the boys loved one's, the boys, or to other fans.
Most people seem to think a real fan is: You know every single thing about everyone the boys have ever encountered, you worship their girlfriends, you buy 350$ tickets to meet them, buy all of there merch. ect.
If that is a real fan, then I am not one.
Things that annoy me:
"I wish One Direction would date a normal girl"
*Louis dates (or whatever your opinion on that is) Eleanor*
"Eleanor doesn't do anything besides go to school and shop" AKA what a normal girl does.
"Harry is whore, he hooks up with everything with a vagina"
No.
"Larry is real, but if you believe in Ziam/Ziall/Niam you're stupid. Zayn/Liam have girlfriends"
Hypocrite.
"If you like One Direction you can't like The Wanted/Big Time Rush/What About Tonight ect"
Ok.
"You're 12 you can't like them"
Music has no age.
This list could go on, but I'm done with the fandom for the time being so whatever.
btw: I'm a 16 yr old larry shipper..
I know, hard to believe.
Okay, I'm not blaming this on anyone really, but yeah, to be honest in the time before Eleanor came into the picture, everything was way, way different.
A lot of fans, like at least half or more haven't been part of the fandom for more than six months, si they won't know, but yeah. IT WASN'T ALWAYS FULL OF SHIT.
There was a time when "Larry or you aren't a real fan"
When I first join the fandom, long ago (okay not that long ago, like this time last year) I felt like I had to lie about when I became a fan ("Since X-Factor), and then later on I felt like I had to like Eleanor, Caroline or who ever the boys were with.
The One Direction fandom is stupid.
Real fan: someone that would support the boys no matter what, someone that would never send hate to the boys loved one's, the boys, or to other fans.
Most people seem to think a real fan is: You know every single thing about everyone the boys have ever encountered, you worship their girlfriends, you buy 350$ tickets to meet them, buy all of there merch. ect.
If that is a real fan, then I am not one.
Things that annoy me:
"I wish One Direction would date a normal girl"
*Louis dates (or whatever your opinion on that is) Eleanor*
"Eleanor doesn't do anything besides go to school and shop" AKA what a normal girl does.
"Harry is whore, he hooks up with everything with a vagina"
No.
"Larry is real, but if you believe in Ziam/Ziall/Niam you're stupid. Zayn/Liam have girlfriends"
Hypocrite.
"If you like One Direction you can't like The Wanted/Big Time Rush/What About Tonight ect"
Ok.
"You're 12 you can't like them"
Music has no age.
This list could go on, but I'm done with the fandom for the time being so whatever.
btw: I'm a 16 yr old larry shipper..
I'm odd.
I'm an odd one.
I know that, I realize that.
I truly don't care other opinions.
If you tell me something, I either won't pay attention, and if for some reason I do, I won't care.
I rarely pay attention to anything.
I have pretty much no sympathy for anyone, or anything.
I'm sarcastic 90% of the time.
I hate you unless I have a valid reason to like you.
If I like you, that means I can handle your presence for fifteen minutes.
I'm hyper active.
I'm trying to lose 20 pounds.
I self-harm.
I always smile, no matter what.
Perks of Being A Wallflower
Several summers ago, three or four, I'm not exactly sure, I spent every Monday and Wednesday at the library.
I probably read at least one hundred books that summer, yet Perks of Being a Wallflower is the only book I remember reading.
I probably read at least one hundred books that summer, yet Perks of Being a Wallflower is the only book I remember reading.
Most attractive body parts..
Woah. I'm weird.
Anyway, I find wrist and collar bones really beautiful okay.
Anyway, I find wrist and collar bones really beautiful okay.
9/16/12
How do I have friends?
I'm being 100% serious. I worry about these poor children's mental health.
I FUCKING READ GAY PORN OUT LOUD TO THEM.
I'm basically the "baby" of my close friend group.
Even though I'm older (not by much but still) them most of them.
But I act like an ADHD five year old (according to them).
Its true though.
They have learned to never bring sugary foods, never have cool school supplies (OMG my friend had a Gel Highlighter and it smells like cherry playdough. Its magical). They never let me cross the street alone, and lol.
HOW THE FUCK DO I HAVE FRIENDS.
I FUCKING READ GAY PORN OUT LOUD TO THEM.
I'm basically the "baby" of my close friend group.
Even though I'm older (not by much but still) them most of them.
But I act like an ADHD five year old (according to them).
Its true though.
They have learned to never bring sugary foods, never have cool school supplies (OMG my friend had a Gel Highlighter and it smells like cherry playdough. Its magical). They never let me cross the street alone, and lol.
HOW THE FUCK DO I HAVE FRIENDS.
Louis Twitter Drama...
Ok, so I'm a Larry Shipper.
Does that make me not a real fan?
Ok.
Whatever, I'm done with the One Direction fandom.
I mean, today I said on Tumblr that people should stop hating on Larry shippers.
And my inbox was filled with this:
Does that make me not a real fan?
Ok.
Whatever, I'm done with the One Direction fandom.
I mean, today I said on Tumblr that people should stop hating on Larry shippers.
And my inbox was filled with this:
I, personally, have never sent hate to anyone (not another fan, or a "girlfriend" or whatever) ever.
Whatever. I'm done.
Also, One Direction isn't special. They aren't the only fandom people write fanfiction about and ship people. EVER FANDOM HAS A GAY COUPLE.
9/15/12
Replacing posters..
whut. ugh. life. music.
so over the course of the last year, all my posters ended up being replaced by one direction posters. but whut they are slowing disappearing
CAN I JUST GET OVER THEM ALREADY
so over the course of the last year, all my posters ended up being replaced by one direction posters. but whut they are slowing disappearing
CAN I JUST GET OVER THEM ALREADY
I love tattoos..
My mom says I'm not aloud to get a tattoo, ever.
We'll see about that in two years mother.
Because I seriously have like tons on tattoo ideas.
We'll see about that in two years mother.
Because I seriously have like tons on tattoo ideas.
I spend all day reading one direction fanfction and blogging about them..
I literally spend all day, everyday reading dozens of One Direction fanfictions (I'm not even picky about pairings anymore. As long as its not het) and blogging non stop. (my tumblr)
Yet, I haven't actually listened to them in weeks.
Yet, I haven't actually listened to them in weeks.
I haven't made a post in like 5 days so.
Quick update in my life:
I'm trying to drop P.E and join band.
I fucking hate P.E because there's an odd number of people in that class. Guess who's the one person that always a loner?
I do not understand Geometry whats so ever.
I hate life.
I started a new story.
Two days without self harm.
Those two days are probably going to turn into zero days soon..
I changed my tumblr url.
I am very excited for (aka my reasons for living at this point):
Don't Panic album by All Time Low (October 9th)
Live While We're Young single by One Direction (September 24th)
Take Me Home album by One Direction (November 12th)
MCR5 and Conventional Weapons
I'm trying to drop P.E and join band.
I fucking hate P.E because there's an odd number of people in that class. Guess who's the one person that always a loner?
I do not understand Geometry whats so ever.
I hate life.
I started a new story.
Two days without self harm.
Those two days are probably going to turn into zero days soon..
I changed my tumblr url.
I am very excited for (aka my reasons for living at this point):
Don't Panic album by All Time Low (October 9th)
Live While We're Young single by One Direction (September 24th)
Take Me Home album by One Direction (November 12th)
MCR5 and Conventional Weapons
9/3/12
Can I just stay home..
Can I just stay home and listen to Sleeping With Sirens and Pierce The Veil all tomorrow instead of going to school?
Band quiz thingy
Pick 5 bands you love before reading the questions.
Sleeping With Sirens
One Direction
Pierce The Veil
My Chemical Romance
All Time Low
What was the first song you ever heard by 1?
[Sleeping with Sirens] If I'm James Dean, You're Audrey Hepburn
Favourite lyrics of 3?
[Pierce The Veil] "I kissed the scars on her skin. I still think you're beautiful and I don't ever want to lose my best friend"
How many times have you seen 4 live?
[My Chemical Romance] Once. Maybe again in the future? :D
Favourite song by 3?
[Pierce The Veil] Yeah Boy and Doll Face, Bulletproof Love, Chemical Kids and Mechanical Brides, King For A Day, and A Match Into Water
Is there any song by 2 that makes you sad?
[One Direction] Not really. Their songs are pretty happy, poppy, and upbeat.
What is your favorite song by 1?
[Sleeping With Sirens] A Trophy Fathers Trophy Son, If You Can't Hang, All My Heart, The Bomb, Four Corners and Two Sides..
When did you first get into 2?
[One Direction] January? I hated them for months before; its my nature to hate pop ok?
How did you get into 3?
[Pierce The Veil] I don't remember at all haha
What is your favorite song by 4?
[My Chemical Romance] Drowning Lessons, Demolition Lovers, Bulletproof Heart, DESTROYA, Thank You For The Venom, You Know What They Do To Guys Like Us In Prison, Hang em High, I Never Told You What I Do For A Living, pretty much every song by them..
What is a good memory concerning 1?
[Sleeping With Sirens] I don't really have one :/
Is there a song by 5 that makes you sad?
[All Time Low] Therapy, Remembering Sunday, Lullabies asdfghjk
What is your favorite song of 2?
[One Direction] Moments, Everything About You, More Than This, Stand Up, Another World, I Should Have Kissed You...
I start school tomorrow.
Yay :) I :) get :) to :) be :) made :) fun :) of :) and :) hated :) by :) everyone :) everyday :)
Seriously, there is a mutual hate between 99 % of my school and me. Let me do the math. There's 400 people at my school, and about five (?) people don't hate me. Wait, I'm shit at math but I'm pretty sure its a lot.
Oh this is my school blog so yeah.
Seriously, there is a mutual hate between 99 % of my school and me. Let me do the math. There's 400 people at my school, and about five (?) people don't hate me. Wait, I'm shit at math but I'm pretty sure its a lot.
Oh this is my school blog so yeah.
Why I like big cities:
Okay, I'm a super insecure person, and I seriously feel like everyone is staring at me thinking how weird I am.
But in big cities everyone is so weird that it doesn't matter how awkward I am.
But in big cities everyone is so weird that it doesn't matter how awkward I am.
25 random songs
25 random song on my iPod on shuffle.
- Time Bomb- All Time Low
- Helena- My Chemical Romance
- Caress Me own- Sublime
- Bullet- Hollywood Undead
- Disasterology- Pierce The Veil
- I'd Rather Die Than Be Famous- Pierce The Veil
- Give it All- Rise Against
- The Beach- All Time Low
- With Ears To See, And Eyes To Hear- Sleeping With Sirens
- Doin' Time- Sublime
- Emenius Sleepus- Greenday
- Everything About You- One Direction
- You Kill Me (In A Good Way)- Sleeping With Sirens
- Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds- The Beatles
- Blood- My Chemical Romance
- Rebel Love Song- Black Veil Brides
- Cat and Mouse- The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
- We're Only Gonna Die For Our Arrogance- Sublime
- Mushroom- eatmewhileimhot!
- Product Of A Murderer- Of Mice & Men
- Poison Heart- The Ramones
- Kill Rock N Roll- System of A Down
- Follow Me- Breaking Benjamin
- Blew- Nirvana
- Fire Alarms- Ed Sheeran.
So, that's 25 of the 1,300+ songs on my iPod..
One Song doesn't belong.
Take a guess? [one direction]
WHY DO I EVEN LIKE THEM?
9/2/12
A Match Into Water
I kissed the scars on her skinAsdfghjkl I love this verse. No.. I don't need more ideas...
I still think you're beautiful
And I don't ever want to lose my best friend
I screamed out "God you vulture,
Bring her back or take me with her"
9/1/12
Ideas... stop it...
Why do i have so many ideas?
Ugh, currently working and three (okay four) stories. I'm determined to write a chapter for each tonight soo..
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