What is love?

Do you ever wonder if your in love? I thought I was in love before but know I look back at that and I was not at all! But now I think I'm in love again and I really have no clue if I am or not?

What is love? I've been told before if you ask that question you are not in love, and like, what if I really am in love and that person doesn't love me back!

What if you think you love someone and you get married to someone and then you don't love them..?

And I mean, I love my friends, I would do anything for them, and I love my family and I love my music more than anything and I THINK I love him but I'm not sure, but I am sure he does not love me. At all. I'm pretty sure he thinks of me as his friends little annoying sister but, he's less than two years older than me..and my cuz (I refer to my cousins as my brother and sister since I lived with them and my grandparents for like most of my life) is over to years older than him, so if he hangs out with someone two years older he can hang out with someone two years old?

Age is only a number right? Because I kinda really freaking love him, love love love. Love changes everything!

Fuck. He's afraid of falling in love. Fuck. Fuck. Fucking fuck.

..there's also the fact that the guy I thought I was in love with one of his closets friends. And he knew that. In fact, the entire school knows that.

Fuck.

We are different yet exactly the same.

I am lost and ranting and bored and stuff. DRUGS ARE BAD KIDS.


Gr. Fuck.

Days come and go but my feelings for you are forever. Gr. Fuck.

What the hell is love and how can I get him out of my head?

Love. Love. FUCK LOVE.

Shall I publish this?

I think yes